Becoming Homo Deus

Becoming
Homo Deus


Talks with the Goddess Aphrodite






By

John Darling






925 Glendower St
    Ashland OR 97520
541-482-3636
darling@jeffnet.org
c. 1998









To My Children

And the Women Who’ve Loved Me


With Love Back






Fore Words

I have been talking to the Goddess for many years.   I started writing down our chats several years ago, about 1990.  Between Thanksgiving and Christmas 1997, I got up at 4 a.m. and took down the first half of this book.  It was taken down at a time that was the extreme low point of my life with love and money, a time of longing for the true anchors and fondations of human and spiritual life.

Caution: Aphrodite does not talk like we think a deity should talk.  She does not speak in Browning-like flowery paragraphs or say “thee” or “my children,” but indicated right off she would speak as we speak.  As I speak.  Which is in common, modern English with plenty of slang and even profanity.  Those who think gods are not capable of swearing are merely projecting an ideal on them.  She is very practical and direct and does not dwell at length on a point once she has made it.

By the way, anyone can talk to God or gods.  I’m not special with a divine pipeline.  We all get answers when we speak to the gods and we are free to write them down.  Whether this is because we are gods or part gods or are intimate with them, well, that’s something you can decide.

This goddess was the first one I ever did a ritual to or with.  That was at Hart Mtn Antelope refuge in the Central Oregon desert in 1985.  I asked her for love and said I was ready to be in it.  It was five days later when I met “her,” the eventual mom of our children.  I love this goddess.  She is present and highly interactive.  After all, she is the goddess of love, “to whom all things are possible” (Homeric Hymns) and nothing is more present in our lives.  Our energy around love and sex determines who we are and all of what happens to us.

She is not too pleased about us controlling love and sex and saving it for the period in our lives when we find our spouse.  Or for just weekends when the kids are staying overnite at someone’s house and we are free to go to the big city.  She wants it on the front burner.  She thinks just about all the problems we face stem from our lack of faith in love and sex.  She wants us to worship them again, which means to worship Her and the gifts she gave us.  That’s what I got.

John Darling
Ashland Oregon
Winter 1998










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What We Really Need
Who’s in Charge of this Universe and
What’s That Wave We’re All Riding


I’m not sure who to talk to here.  But this is my invocation.  I know you are there, or rather, right here and I want you to talk to me.  Regularly and truthfully.  I’m kind of tired of waiting for you to appear like a ghost and make actual words.  I kind of believe you inhabit all life, though, and therefore live inside or around me and can communicate your thoughts into words in my mind.  I know you can.  I don’t want to read words in a book written down by Iron Age males.  I want you to talk to me directly.  I don’t want to make it up.  I will wait for you and listen for you with every step. 

Please hear me.  I am so lonely for a deity to come and sit and walk beside me every day.  This stuff of having someone just create the universe and turn me loose in it and disappear, no, that is not satisfying.  I must know you.  I’m so tired of feeling afraid and alone.  We are not meant to feel this isolated and that feeling never goes away, no matter how many family and friends we have.  And no matter how much you love yourself.

And I am so tired of having the One True version of religion (you know the one) shoved at me all my life like a plate of spinach.  I long for a deity who is kind of like me, who appreciates and loves life here on this earth, one who pretty much accepts us as we are (they created us this way, didn’t they?) and one who does not blush at the word sex or think women belong at the back of the bus of life.

 I want it to be a goddess that talks to me.  We already know what God thinks and wants.  We have not heard from goddesses for many centuries, though. Well, we’ve been hearing more and more in the last few decades.   There are so many different ones, so I ask myself, well, who is the goddess of love?  It is of course Aphrodite, at least in the Greek world so familiar to us in the West. 

So I say to you, I would like to have a conversation with you and I ask that you come and be here with me and be honest with me and help me answer some of the persistent mysteries of human existence.  I long for the truth about so many things.  I don’t want it to come from books but rather from a deity herself.   So I now ask you to come sit beside me, like an old friend.  I meet you not on my knees, but with my fingers on the computer keyboard. 

Aphrodite, Goddess of Love, are you here with me?

I am.

Welcome.  Will you speak to me and through me as I write?

What has given you the greatest pleasures of life?  Answer that first.

Ok.  What has given me the greatest pleasure in this life is: being in this beautiful world, having children, falling in love and making love, preferably with someone I love and am loved by.  Eating is good too.  Good food, eaten with people I love.  And sleep.  Actually, walking is a great pleasure, too.

Very good instincts. Now, what do all these have in common?

They are all positive and good.  And they are all delicious fun.

Something else, too.

Well, life wouldn’t have too much meaning without them.

It’s bigger than that.

Bigger? 

Imagine life without just one of them.

Well, without food and sleep, I would die.  And without this earth, I would die.  And without the people I love, I would kind of curl up and live in a tiny ball, which would be like death and I would probably die of something soon.  Drink myself to death.  Without children, the species would die, of course.  Caring for children is such a powerful drive.  I would step in front of a train for them.  Most parents would.  That’s a big indication of the meaning of children.  And without sex, well, the species would die.  And what would be in second place as a pleasure?  Not much.  The wine would have to be awfully good to replace that.

So, what did you learn from our little exercise?

They are all connected with survival.  They are all life-giving.  And they are all a tremendous pleasure.

So, there’s kind of a connection between survival and pleasure, is there?

Yes.  I never thought of it that way. 

That is why you are so troubled.

Me?  Or do you mean the plural?

I mean both.  We have given you all the means to survive and we have braided them in with all our deepest pleasures.

So you really wanted us to survive.  And who is “we?”

Yes, we really wanted you to survive.  And much more.  Just surviving does not say much for us as deities.  We have evolved with a much greater range than that.  And, as creative energies in the universe, we pass on much more than that to you.

You pass it on?  Who is we?  Are there many gods and goddesses?  What is your particular area?  So many questions.  How does this all work?

You already know the answer to those questions.  You know it in your heart.  One thing you can be sure of is that when you start having many questions, you are straying from the simple answers which you already have in your heart.  You were born with all that knowledge in your heart.  That is where wisdom is.

Ok.  Now, if I may, I would just like to hear the answer.  Are there many deities or just one or what?

(Laughs)  Humans are so playful.  We all love that about you.  You are like otters or monkeys that way.  We love to watch you.  Except humans take themselves so seriously.  Otters do not.

Is that your way of not answering the question?

Ok, I will answer.  I said I was here and I will respond to you truthfully.  I will not always answer you in the literal way you use when you ask your questions.  Many or one?  This is just a construct of the human mind, which it uses to nail down what it considers some sort of real, final truth.  It needs this because it is susceptible to fear and the illusion of being alone.

Ok, I’m susceptible to fear and aloneness.  Now, many or one?

It’s both.  We wouldn’t be gods if we excluded any possibility, would we?

(I laugh)  Of course you wouldn’t.  Now, could you please explain that?  Both?  Is this some paradoxical truth, like the sound of one hand clapping?

The truth is it doesn’t matter if we are one or many.  Let’s go back to life’s greatest pleasures.  When you are engaged in a good feast or making love, is it one or many? 

It’s one.  I’m beginning to see what you mean.

And what in life do you consider to be not so much a pleasure?

Oh, like paying bills or doing a list of “to-do’s” for the day or cleaning the bathrooms.  Or feeling guilty.

These are not pleasures? 

Not really.

Do you know why?

Well, I suppose I should be living in the moment and trying to make a game out of them or something.  But it’s not easy to do that.

Oh, you poor thing.

Gee, I didn’t know a deity could be sarcastic.

We can be anything.  We would not be deities if we excluded anything, would we?

Ok.  One or many?

Back to the non-pleasures.  Why do you experience them as not pleasurable?

Should I not?

It’s up to you.  You have the power to experience them any way you want.  That’s what we gave you.  The full range.

So, what are you saying?  That when we are in pleasure, we experience things as one?

Something like that.  When we are in touch with truth, which is another word for reality, we experience the many as one.  When we get out of touch, we feel pinched and experience the one as many.  We get out of touch with reality.  We lose sight of truth.  We become isolated from our fellow beings.  We get lonely and afraid.

We?  You mean that you deities do that too?

We wouldn’t be deities if we excluded anything, would we?  It doesn’t last long, though.  Sometimes, I think we do it just for fun, so we can have the thrill of coming back into reality.  It seems fresh then.  Gotta have change and newness, you know.  Got to.  That’s a big issue.  If we talk long, we’ll be talking about that.

So, is there a One God type of thing?  And is God male?  I guess not, since you are female and a deity.

It’s a good question.  The divine is both one and many.  And there is one big, final truth about the divine – that there is just one divine energy or entity. And yet it is experienced in so many moods and facets and potentials.  So the human mind tends to break it down into categories, so as to grasp it better. It’s like saying the seasons are four separate things, yet they comprise the one year, which is a unified thing.  Is it four things or one thing?  Does it matter?  It just is. 

So why have all religions seen the divine as male and as one for so many centuries?

It has been a necessary part of your journey to see it that way.

Why?  Why did we have to do that?  And for so long.

It was necessary.  Humans entered a big phase of their evolution when their minds got complex enough and they came in out of the woods and built permanent homes and started planting and harvesting food.  You became very successful, which is good.  You lived longer and had more time to hang out and pleasure yourselves.  The female energy came to the fore.  The pinch came when you got too successful and there were simply too many of you.  Then you started holding your territory against each other.  For that, the male energy had to come to the fore.  And the male energy was the energy of invention.  It was time to invent lots of things – cities, big buildings, vehicles, ships, chariots, all that stuff.

Gunpowder, nukes, space ships?

All that, too.

Well, can I ask you, IS there a God?  You know, the all-powerful male deity of the Bible?

Of course there is.  He’s a feisty sort and can be very annoying, but he’s nowhere near as intractable as you hear on those tv shows.  All deities anyone has ever honored do exist.  Even if the people who honor them totally die out. 

Well, does he think he’s the one true god? 

No, of course not.  There are many deities in his book anyway: God, Jesus, Satan, Holy Spirit.  Mary’s pretty much deified.  Mother of God.  There has to be more than one.  It would be too lonely.  And yet, we all ARE one.  We really understand and love each other AND we are all on the same wave, so to speak, doing the same dance, appreciating the same energies.

The same wave?  What is that wave? 

That wave is the same wave you are on.  It is love, of course.










 


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Each Contains All, All Contains Each
Do the Gods Love Us?
Human Loneliness and their Journey to Being Gods


Goddess, it’s me, John.  Are you here?

Good morning.  How do you like the dawn?

It’s beautiful.  All streaked with orange against the slate clouds of winter.  Did you make it?

(Laughs) It’s not like that.  Gods don’t go around making sunrises.  We are part of them, though.  It’s that dance, that riding of the wave I was telling you about.  Dance is the closest word you have to it.  It’s a flowing of energies that is very supremely joyful and powerful for us.  It expresses who we are and what we like to do most of the time.  We love change and motion.  That’s what we do.

I want to thank you for yesterday’s session.  It meant a lot to me.  I was surprised how easy it came.  I am really honored that you would talk to me or communicate through me.  I have to ask you, though, is it ok to talk to a deity like this?  Is it like presumptuous or sinful or arrogant of me?  Am I wasting the time of a deity?  I know this probably sounds silly.  And I have a feeling what you are going to say. 

What am I going to say?

I notice you often toss a question back to me, like a Socratic dialogue or something. 

We want you to search your own heart as much as possible.  Everything’s in there.  You’ve heard of a hologram.  It’s like that.  Each part contains the whole.  Each cell contains the genes for the whole organism.  Each molecule contains the blueprint of the universe.  Each soul contains the souls of all beings, including all deities.

Yes.  I’ve heard that.  Is the reverse true?  That the divine beings contain all the souls of living things?

Yes, it’s both-and.  The many are contained in the one and yet the one is contained in the many.  Or in the individual who is just one of the many.  Quite a paradox, isn’t it?  That is wisdom – paradoxical.  Now about your concern regarding your worthiness to be talking to a deity?  Or the properness of it?  We like it.  You can’t bore us or insult us or any of that.  That is all stuff which comes from human relations and from the fear of hurting each other and losing love.  You can’t do that with deities.

We can’t lose your love?

Right.  You can’t possibly lose our love.

So you love us?  Do all deities love us?  And do you love all life, the muskrats and bugs and lions and germs, too?

Yes.  We love you all completely and all of the time.

Wow.  So you haven’t just created the universe and withdrawn from it and left it ticking like a big clock?

That’s right. We love you.  I love you, personally.  I am always here for you in all ways.

Then why does it hurt so much sometimes?  How can I have that feeling of being alone sometimes, so deeply?  That feeling of being completely on my own?

Dear one, remember, it is both-and.  Everything always contains the potential to be itself and its seeming opposite.  You are alone.  You have complete freedom and autonomy.  And yet you can never be alone. You are so deeply woven into the lives of all other humans and all life forms and all deities.  That is why there are mystics among you.  They devote their lives just to realizing this one thing.

Ok, Goddess, I get that intellectually.  But I rarely feel it.  And it hurts.  Do I have to go away to a mountain top just to focus on that and keep reminding myself or something? 

No.  That wouldn’t help.  One of the big reasons you are here is to learn about that.  You are here to experience being alone.  You are always learning a lot from how you respond to that. 

What am I learning? 

When you feel alone, what do you feel?

I feel I want love.  I feel I want someone to call me up and invite me to a party.  I long for others.  I need to talk to people who care about me.

And when you are doing this, where is love?

Well, it seems it is “out there” somewhere and that I must go find it and do it to have it.  I know, I know, everyone says you have to find it within or you will never find it out there.  And I’ve experienced that as true many times.  And yet this nagging feeling of being alone persists.

That sensation of aloneness is important and necessary for you, for all humans.  You worked hard to get it.  It is part of your evolutionary journey.

We worked hard to get it?  Why would we want it?  It just seems entirely unpleasant.  It seems to serve just to drive us out to mindlessly mill around with others seeking something that they can’t really give us because they are out there milling around looking for it too.  Where’s the benefit?  What are we trying to get?

You guys used to be part of the animal world.  You’re not anymore.  You just have to watch some deer cross the road and look in their eyes.  You used to be like that.  They are not afraid.  They will flee death, but they are not afraid of it.  You are.  All humans are.  That’s what has made you feel that aloneness. 

This is really hitting home.  Ok, why did we leave the animal world?  What’s there to gain by all this civilization and this separation from nature? 

You wanted autonomy.  You didn’t want to be taken care of.  You wanted to be free.  And so you are.

Yes, but why?  Why did we want to be free?

Ok, this is kind of a biggie.  Are you ready?  You said you wanted the truth.

Ready.

You guys learned so much about the divine world back in the stone age and those early millennia of farming, doing all those wild rituals in caves and fields, that you eventually wanted to be like us.  You got ambitions.  You saw we were having a great time.  You saw you had to power to make things happen.  You went for it.  Actually, you kind of got jealous of us. 

You have got to be kidding.

No, I swear.  We got such a kick out of it.  We laughed for hours.  Or was it centuries?  You never know what humans are going to do.  We love that about you.  It is godlike.

So we decided we had to become as gods?

Not AS gods.  You decided you had to BECOME gods.

I noticed you can be facetious.  You’re not just pulling my leg here?

No.  This is what happened.  We love it.

You know it’s kind of considered a big sin to want to be a god.  You’re supposed to fear God and “lean not unto thine own understanding” type of thing.  Doesn’t this kind of explain why we’re in so much trouble, making nukes, feeling alone and neurotic so much of the time?

Thank you for all that sin.  That just makes us feel so good, because now we can punish you!

Now, that was facetiousness.  Wasn’t it?

Yes.  It was.  Didn’t you think it was funny?

Well, as long as I know you’re kidding.  There aren’t any gods that act that way, are there?  Wanting to punish sin and all that?  That’s what we’ve been telling ourselves for centuries.

No, no, no.  That’s all coming from you guys.  You’re just a little afraid of the journey you started on – you know, becoming gods – and it’s your way of being cautious, kind of pulling back from the precipice.  Actually, the one you call God, you know, Yahweh?  He’s kind of getting tired of all that.  He might be getting a complex.  We have to humor him.  Sent anyone to hell lately?  I think he’s starting to lighten up.

So it’s all a projection?  Our sin and unworthiness before God?

Pretty much.

So, ARE we becoming gods?  Or just fooling ourselves and making a big mistake at the same time?  Should we have stayed immersed in nature?

You could have stayed immersed in nature forever.  It would have been a good time.  Paradox.  There is no time in nature.  You created time by emerging from nature.  But that’s another story.  Becoming gods?  You are not doing too badly.  The technology approach is interesting and novel.  You have gone to other worlds, split the atom, come up with computers, tv, pagers, all that stuff.  Of course, that won’t help you become gods.  It does help you impress yourselves.  You need that.

God, what a sense of humor.  Is it, like, natural for gods to talk like us humans?  I notice you use our slang – biggie, got a kick out of it, etc.  How is it you sound pretty much like me? 

Good question.  I can sound like anyone, of course.  I just talk in your language.  It’s coming through you, so it uses your nerve pathways and thoughts.  And it comes out sounding human.

What do you sound like – and look like – to, say a muskrat?

Guess.

Like a muskrat?

You got it.

So we weren’t necessarily created in your image?

Everything was created in our image.

You mean ants see deities?  The Great Ant?

Yes.  All life forms see us and know us.

Is that why they’re not afraid to die?  I mean, you said when we were animals, we were not afraid of death and that now we are.

Good insight.  That’s pretty much it.  All animals see themselves reflected in the divine.  You used to.  And all life forms see themselves reflected AS divine in all other life forms.  That’s why, when one animal gets eaten by another, well, it’s not that big a thing.  Once it starts happening, they surrender to it.  It’s supposed to happen and it’s all divine movement.

And we’re afraid to die because…

Well, don’t take this personally. It’s because you came indoors and lived in a world you created all by yourselves.  You kind of left the family.  You’re out of the web.  But that’s ok.  It’s an experiment.  And we love all experiments.  The fact is, you kind of got mad at us.  Which is fine.  You’ve kind of been like a late adolescent who needs to leave home and find yourself and make your own way.  So you get lonely.  You miss home.  You don’t see the deities any more.  Well, once in a while.

We don’t see you much any more.  This must have a terrible effect on us.  What has been the effect?

The effect has been that most of the time, you have lost your way.  But it’s only been for three or four millennia.  This is only a fraction of 1 percent of the time you’ve been aware, walking-around humans.  You’ve got all that foundation and confidence in your cells.  You guys are starting to find your way.  Bit by bit. 

We are?  That’s very important.  What do you mean by that?  How are we starting to find our way?

I’m getting a little in need of a change here, so this will be the last question for today.  I will ask you if you can answer it first.  Remember, I said you had all answers in your heart because you contain all beings and deities.  Just look.

Ok.  We are finding our way because I see that we have achieved a consensus that nukes are not ok.  And that we must heal the planet of our ravages.   And that love and feelings are very important, so that we now have shows like Oprah, where people talk openly about their hearts.  Things like that?

Very good.  These things were not on the planet at all 50 years ago.  There are many more signs of big shifting.  Talk to me tomorrow.  I am enjoying it.  Will you come?

Yes.  I will.













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Love, the Scariest Adventure
Why We Left Eden
Why We Alone Fear Death

Goddess, are your there?

Here I am.

I can feel you.  How is it sometimes I can feel you like right in front of me and all around me and other times not so near?

That’s just the way it is.  Sometimes you’re really hot, sometimes not.  I’m always right here, though. 

Goddess, we were talking about the big changes on the planet, which, of course means, the big changes in humans.  Is one of these war?  I notice there hasn’t been a World War in 50 years or so.  Are we changing?  Or is it human instinct to need a good bloodbath every generation?

It’s not human instinct to need that.  You only do that when you are out of touch with reality.  For you guys, the reality is love.  You become real whiney babies without it.  Real colicky.  Real angry.

Real warlike?

Yes.  You start killing each other for love.  Underneath all your glorious, courageous war, you are just saying, hey, I’m mad at you for not being kind, considerate, attentive and loving.

We’d rather die than love each other?

Yes.  War is less scary than love for you right now.  It’s much more the unknown.  War is known.  You guys have a love-hate relationship with the unknown.  You consider it a threat at first, then some rebel-misfits go jump into it, they get persecuted by the conservative, outraged mass of normal people, then everyone eventually follows.  That’s your instinct.  It’s very endearing to us.  We love you for it.  And right now the big unknown, scary adventure for you is love.

We are just now learning about love?

No, you knew all about love before.  You have hundreds of thousands of years’ experience living in tribes and loving each other in a real open way, without regard for age, class or anything.  You would die for each other.  You can never lose that.  However, you guys have this penchant for experiment and adventure that is really extreme.  You chose to leave the tribal scene.  To leave the tribal scene is really an enormous jump into the unknown.  The tribe or pack or clan or anthill, whatever, is what gives living things almost all their sense of stability, safety and security in this world.  It’s an enormous, powerful web of love.

We left this because we wanted….

 You wanted to become individuals. And you wanted to become gods.  You saw you couldn’t do this without leaving the pervasive round of nature which we all set up for you. 

What has becoming an individual got with becoming a god?

Gods have an immense amount of autonomy.  We all work together, yet we can only do that if we also work apart and develop these immense, amazing skills and potentials.

Like what?

Like I have the area of erotic love.  No one can do what I do.  I hold the energies of sexual delight.  Does Buddha or White Buffalo Woman or Yahweh do that?  No.  And if you watch a summer thunderstorm go on for hours with all that lightning, thunder and sheer power, you get that a certain collection of energies and potentials is being expressed here.  The Greeks called it Zeus.  I don’t do that.  Zeus does that.

So, we wanted to develop ourselves in certain areas, as you deities do?

Yes.  You saw how we worked.  You wanted it.  You saw that, if you remained in a state of nature, you would all kind of be the same.  You would be happy campers, but you would never evolve much beyond what you were.  You looked at the animals and, while you saw the divine in them and worshipped them, you saw they had never really changed in a billion years and neither would you.  Eat, sleep, sex, birth, death.  It was eternal and timeless.  You wanted to emerge into the world of time.

Time?  There was no time in a state of nature?

No.  You can still feel this if you like go on a long backpacking trip and really kick back.  You get in the moment.  It’s a very archaic skill.  Time disappears.  You know how to live that way.  It’s very attractive.  And very hard to get to now for you.

So, time is an artifice?  Something we made up?

You didn’t make it up.  But you discovered it.  And then you moved into it and started living there.  You felt the pressure of time.  You became aware that you would die.  And that made you want to pack a lot into your life.  The other living things don’t feel this at all.  When death comes for them, they just go with it.  It’s comfortable for them.  But not for you guys.  You want to become immortals.  That’s why you resent and fear death.  It suggests you are not succeeding on your quest for the immortality inherent in godhood.  You are even a little ashamed of growing old.  It’s quite charming.

Well, how are we doing on our journey to becoming gods?  Will we ever get there?  Have we actually become even a little godlike since leaving a state of nature?

Yes, you have changed.  You can never go back and live with the animals.  You did your technology thing.  That was very impressive.  However, the main reason you did it was to distance yourself from the animals.  Anything that suggested you were like them, well, that just wasn’t going to do.  You guys have immense pride around your journey.  But that’s because you are so scared about the irrevocability of your journey.

The technology itself won’t make us gods? 

Of course not.  It will entertain you a lot.  But, of course, technology is just external stuff.  To answer your question, you are destined to become gods, yes.  You are committed.  Like a skydiver once he leaves the plane.  It’s too late to turn back, baby.

So we will become gods?  Seriously, how close are we?

It’s not like that.  You are trying to pin it down in time.  There is no time to the gods.  Sometimes, you are actually there for a moment or two.  Some individuals hang out there quite a bit.  Everyone tastes it at least a few times in life.  Do you know when that is likely to happen?

Don’t tell me.  During sex.  During sex while falling in love.  Sometimes in nature.  Sometimes on drugs.

Yes.  Those often do it.  The greatest of these is love, however. You’ve heard that before, right?

Right.  Why is that?

Love is what we are.  It is the great dance the gods do.  Love is when we are most real.  Love is attraction and interest in another, both for what the other is and for what the other sees in us and gives back to us.  Love  is divinely selfish.  Love is its own reward.  Love is the reality we are in touch with when we are in touch with reality.  When we love, we are always sane and always live right.  Love, not immortality or power, is the real trait of the gods.

And we had that?  And we gave it up? 

Yes.  You left reality.  Why?  You wanted to build your own reality.  That’s what you saw us gods doing.  So you wanted to do it.  Gods create worlds, realities, systems of nature, universes.  You wanted that power.  You knew you never could have it if you just lived in the system we built.  It has cost you dearly.  You are very lonely, for one thing.  The main thing.

What are we lonely for?  The gods, for sure.  And each other.

Good answering.  I told you all the answers were in the wisdom of your own heart.  You’re right.  You miss us.  We used to be hanging around in the flesh for you, as it were.  You could see us.  We came to dinner and festivals and, of course, especially lovemaking, birth, death, etc.   We were not something you worshipped but could not see.  We were visible.  Like we still are to all other life forms.

I just want to see you, all of you.  And to know that kind of love with other people.  It’s just so unfair.  And actually, it’s cruel.

(Laughs) Well, gee.  I hate to say this, but you guys knew what you were doing.  And you chose to do it.  If you get stuck in longing for that innocent world, you will never get where you’re going.  You know, do what you’re doing?  It’s elementary psychology.  Be where you are and you will get where you’re going. 

Ok.  Sorry.  It’s tough, though.  It’s so easy to get angry with mankind and all the ills of civilization – wars, racism, sexism, ignorance, pollution, overrunning the planet, wiping out other life forms, on and on.

Yeah, you guys really are a piece of work.  It’s not all supposed to run perfectly, though.  Like nature.  We made nature and it runs perfectly.  Even if it all goes to hell, like when an asteroid hits Earth and wipes out everything, that’s still perfect, as far as we are concerned.  So why do you suppose that humans look at the faults of civilization and say it doesn’t work?

I don’t know.  When things crash in our civilization, we wring our hands and blame each other and say it’s not working and must be made to work.  We think it's perfectible. 

Funny, isn’t it?  We know nature and everything and everyone in it is perfect.  Except you guys.  You are the only part of it that considers itself imperfect.  Yet we created you.  How did you get imperfect?  It’s a mystery.  But very endearing.  We get a kick out of how hard you work to maintain your image of yourselves and your world as imperfect.  Let me ask YOU a question for once.  Why do you do that?

Well, we’re not all imperfect.  A baby is perfect.  Everyone knows that.  Everyone adores babies for that reason.  I guess they just learn imperfection as they learn how to be human.  That’s called growing up, I guess.

Growing up?  It sounds immature to me. 

Well, anyway, can I just ask you one question?  Even though we are off on our own trip here, leaving your beautiful world and living in ignorance of all its perfection, are you still involved in our lives?  Do you still care?  Or are you like standing back with your arms folded, kind of wearing a half smile and chatting among yourselves about our follies?

This would be a good time for you to look in your heart and answer that question yourself.

Well, you’re here talking to me.  And I sense you deities are all around us.  But I can’t see you.  Except as nature itself. 

Right.  We are nature itself.  All those energies of life, mating, death, weather, stars, on and on – those are the energies that are coursing through our being.  You are seeing us.  But, what you have lost is that you are not seeing yourselves reflected in us anymore.   You used to, when you were making all those figurines, statues, effigies, totems.

And today, we’re seeing a lot more of that coming back.  People getting tattoos, having altars around the house – does this mean it’s coming back?

Yes.  You guys are getting back into it.

Why now?

You were too lonely.  You had set reality – love – up to be in another world.  It is in another world.  And it’s also here in this world, no less than the next world.  This is enough for today.













~ 4 ~



We’re Not Animals Anymore; Not Gods Yet
How We Got Such Rich Sexuality
What Opened Us Up to Self-Awareness & Intelligence


Good morning, Goddess.

Hi.  Lovely sunrise behind those black mountains, isn’t it?

Yes.  I always love that in winter.  I have a big question. 

I love those big ones.

Ok.  Are we really different from the animals?  I mean, you always hear how we are created in the image of God and we are very different and way more evolved than all other things and biblically at least, are supposed to go forth and have dominion over them and all that.  Are we different from them or are we just like them, but we got some trick of awareness and started making technology and getting kind of full of ourselves?

You didn’t used to be any different from the animals a few million years ago.  Then you did, in fact, become different.  You did the ultimate bootstrap lift.  You did it through ritual, which raised your awareness about how the gods work..  You knocked through that wall and started asking yourselves, hey, what is this really all about?  How did this stuff get here?  How can everything fit together so neatly?  It’s too perfect.

You mean we noticed there was some consciousness behind all the seeming randomness of nature?  A divine plan?

Yes.  We left clues. Kind of like signing the painting.  We were pretty proud of what we created. 

What clues?

The big one was that the moon is exactly the same size from here as is the sun.  And that the moon always has the same face toward earth.  Those two things would be practically impossible to happen randomly.  And there was a third, which I insisted on.  It’s that when you humans make love, it feels just exactly how it feels to be me, a deity.    Absolutely divine and ecstatic.  Something that would take you completely out of your normal experience.  And something that would let you know, beyond any question, that we exist and we love you.  Especially me.  I wanted you to know how much I love you.

I never thought of it that way.  Sex is really kind of way out there in a class by itself, with the next best thing being in 30th place.  God, I really, I mean, Goddess, I really want to thank you.

You’re welcome.

None of the other creatures feel sex this way?

Well, they feel compelled to it in the same way you do, with the same absolute urgency.  But it’s to get the seeds together.  With you guys, it is always much, much more important to get the people together.  To love.

So you DID make us different then. 

Well, ok, in that one way.  I wanted one species to know what I know and live what I live.

But how could we have remained as animals in a state of nature when we have this vast, intensely pleasurable dimension of sexuality with us all the time, day and night, all year round?

Good point.  I couldn’t resist doing it, though.  It was widely admired as a masterful stroke.  The gods always love tossing big energies into the pot.  You know, T. rex, comets, earthquakes, way too many stars.  It took a lot of vision and work on my part to make it happen, though.  I had to push through all that momentum of life forms which carried sex ONLY for reproduction.  I felt reproduction and survival and multiplying wasn’t enough by itself.  There had to be a certain quality, at least in you guys, to go along with all the quantity.

You!  You set us apart from the animals.  You popped us onto the fast evolutionary track.

Ok, I didn’t foresee this.  You’re right.  Your intense sexuality is what forced you into rapid evolution.  You accessed deity consciousness. When you are making love, I mean when you are doing it as a free person and honoring the gift I gave you with all the respect inherent in it, then, right there, while you are in that ecstasy, you know that no deity has it any better than you do.  That kind of ecstatic union with another being, well, what it did was it opened your hearts up and you started really loving each other, not just having a species affiliation, loyalty and reproductive urge. That’s what spurred evolution.  You saw the immense possibilities of things.  You saw that things could change.  You saw that you held a power in your hands and that you could use it and things would happen.  You would connect with fellow beings in ways that just opened up immense possibilities of action and choice.   Freedom of choice.  That’s the key.  The other creatures have never had any choice or freedom.  I gave you that. 

So, the huge sexual dimension kind of opened up our capacity to actually love each other?  Animals don’t love each other, do they?  They will protect each other and die for each other, but it is like an instinctive set of actions over which they exercise no real choice.

That’s right.  Animals don’t love each other.  Not the way you do, anyway.  Not even close.  And it was your sexuality which opened up your ability to love.  And your ability to think.

To think?

Yes.  To reason independently.

Independently?  I’m beginning to get the feeling this is all at the root of why we precipitated out of nature and began our journey into time, civilization and individuality.  And isolation, ironically.

It is ironic.  Awareness is a double-edge deal.  If you have it, you just can’t selectively be aware.  Everything comes in.  Including listening to fear.  Which is what your isolation is all about.  You went into time and became aware of the future, which means you started applying your reason to what MIGHT happen.  Then you get afraid.  Then you pull back from life.  Then you get isolated.  And most of your fear is fear of what other humans might do or not do.  And, of course, you came to fear death.

Sounds like a pretty tough case.  Maybe we should have stayed in nature.  But you just basically said that was impossible from the get-go, what with this outrageous sex.

It is a tough case.  It’s not easy.  I gave you a big gift.  And with it came a big challenge.  You have to use it or lose it.  You have to learn to fly.  You know, you guys had a great time with the sexuality part for hundreds of thousands of years, but since your brains got more evolved and you created all this complex civilization, you are not having so great a time.  You’ve basically lost sight of the pleasures of sex, except during brief periods when it is new or you are young.  You’ve tried to put the lid on it and control it while you build your complex world.

That’s very disturbing.  We can’t go back to nature.

Never.  You can visit and enjoy it.  But you will never be at home there again.  You have become projective beings.  What you see is what you project on the screen.  It’s a highly creative process.  That’s why you love moviemakers and movie stars.  They are displaying the process you guys all go through every day.  You conceive, then you perceive.  You perceive what you conceive.  It starts inside.

We create our own realities.  Then we experience them.  Then usually we split off from them and say, hey, well, reality is out there just happening.  I didn’t put it there.

Right.   However, you guys are in fact doing what we gods are always doing.  You are using consciousness to create reality.  So, in fact, you are already partly godlike.  It is a big part of being divine.  Another big part of being divine is knowing you are creating reality.

So, how did you, with your consciousness, make us such richly sexual beings?

Well, (laughs) that was really fun.  And a lot of work, too.  I had to hold an orgasm in my body, mind, heart and soul  for about 12 years. 

You did?  How did you do that?  Did you have a partner?

You guys were my partner.  I made love to you.

How did you do that?  I mean, did you take human form or something?

I just did it.  I took all the human forms that were around on this world.  Everyone really went for it.  Of course, they also asked me to do it.  I just didn’t do it without their permission.  They were praying and dancing and going into trances and begging for blessings for things they could almost feel, but not quite possess.  They saw that I knew and had something great and they wanted my powers.  So I gave it to them.

Why?

Because I came to love them.  They were ardent, like suitors.  They had to have me.  They had great heart.  Your ancestors won this gift for you.

And now?  You say we’ve kind of lost it. 

It can’t ever be lost.  It has gone into eclipse.  You guys are busy with other things right now.  It will be back. 

But I miss it now.  And I think a lot of other people do, too.  When will it come back?  And what would make us want to try to get it back?

I don’t know.  I just know you will come back to it.  You fought too hard for it.  It is the bedrock of who you are as a species.  Your whole intellect, all your love, all your art and culture is built on it.  You often try to deny that, but it’s still so.

Why do we try to deny it?

You keep catching my every little inference and drilling in on it.  That’s ok.  I will tell you.  I know you are a writer and will try to spread it around.  That’s ok.  Why do you guys, with great regularity, try to deny your immense sexuality and the divinity of sex in general?

Yes.  Why?

It’s fear.  Of course.  Because the power of love is absolutely unlimited.  As is the pleasure of sex.  Combined, well, you have the power of the gods.  That’s what people feel when they fall in love.  That they are disintegrating and surrendering to an immense floodtide of natural powers and being ruthlessly shaped into something else.  And so they are.  That’s what happens to us gods every single day.  And we love it.  You have to love it to be a deity.  You don’t just arrive at great wisdom and power and then sit there.

And we deny the power of love and sex because?

Because you want to hang on to who you think you are.

You mean the ego-identity we acquire?

Yup.  That.

It’s usually pretty inadequate, worried, neurotic and slavishly seeking external approval, isn’t it?

Yup.  It is. That’s the personality of someone who just isn’t available to love.  Or to sex.  To be at all interesting, sex has to be a real exploration of the unknown in another and in oneself.  We are all absolutely unlimited, human and god.  We have no idea of our depth and extent. 

So, we’re sitting on sex.  And afraid to love. 

Pretty much.  Virtually all of you.

Are you disappointed?

I’m kind of bored with you.  Actually.  And that’s ok, too.  And a bit lonely.  However, I go where the energy is.  Don’t worry about me.  I don’t need your supplications or confessions.  I don’t need to forgive you.  It’s all an awareness trip.  You guys are starting to become aware of where you’ve been since you came out of the woods and built walls around yourselves.

Where have we been, really, these last 3-5,000 years? 

Well, one thing you’ve been doing is developing the masculine.  That’s for sure.  Men measuring their powers in terms of being able to do without love and intimacy.  Right.  We all believe that.  You guys are so funny sometimes.  However, it had to be explored.  Even if as nothing more than a bad example.  You had to really develop those mental powers.  And you have. 

What do you think of the complexity of our world now, with all these computers, rockets, tv, freeways, cars, on and on?

It’s really quite something.  You are making a world, a parallel world that rivals the complexity of nature. 

Are we blowing it by our environmental excesses and growth?

Yes, of course you are.













~ 5 ~





To Fear Love, and To Want It So
Gods Have Feelings, Too
Addiction to Fear & Its Payoffs



Hi Goddess.  Another beautiful sunrise.  I notice I’m not going out to do my morning prayers in the meadow.

Why should you?  I’m right here.

So many questions.  Each answer gives birth to ten more questions. 

I will answer all that you want to ask.

Yesterday, you mentioned fear.  We are holding back from the vast landscapes of love and sexuality, because we want to hold onto who we think we are.  We are afraid of change, of letting go.

Yes.

We want love so.  We cannot get it out of our minds.  It’s always on the radio, reaching for love, losing love, not being worthy of love.  It’s rarely, hey, I found love and I’m happy.

Yes.  It’s very frustrating, isn’t it?

Yes.  Everyone’s always looking for the right person.  Women are always saying there’s so few good men and if they could only find just one.

Yes.  Everyone’s afraid.  Not just men.  To blame others for not loving is to excuse oneself from love also.

Why do men have such a reputation for fearing commitment and sensitivity?

It’s not about gender.  You guys are way off in the weeds, all of you, on love.  Maybe not wanting to commit under such conditions is only being true to instinct.

What do you mean?

You have taken the great river of love I gave you and put the Grand Coulee Dam on it and run fish ladders around it and polluted it with all your waste, by which I mean your fear.  And you wonder why it’s no fun anymore.  Fear is the enemy of love.  And of sex, of course. 

Culture-wide, you mean?

Yes, culturally and personally, almost without exception.  It is a great dark age for the gifts I gave you.

Are you mad at us?

No.  Well, a little.  It’s not unexpected.  The gift I gave you was a great one for you as people still living half in nature.  With the masculinity thing, it’s a little hard.

I feel your hurt.  Really.  I didn’t know a god could hurt.  But you actually are hurt. 

Ok.  It’s not easy.  But things are not always in the ascendancy.  Day-night, summer-winter.  Cycles, you know. 

This is a winter for love then.

Essentially.

I’m sorry.

Thank you.  I welcome your feeling it for me and with me. 

I didn’t know a god could need anything from us humans. 

I know that’s a common belief of you guys.  It’s certainly not so.  We want your energy.  We want you to talk to us and dance with us and do life with us.  We don’t need so much of the awe and reverence.

And certainly not fear of gods.

Right.  That does no one any good.  We’re all on the same continuum, all alive, all reaching, all experiencing it.

Where did we learn fear and what purpose does it serve now?

You didn’t used to be very afraid of being eaten by predators.  You would die. That was it.  It was sacrilegious to fear.  It was in bad taste.  To fear was to say, hey, we don’t trust the great workings of nature.  We lack faith in the ways of Goddess.  You learned fear as you precipitated from nature and got into the isolation of individuality.  Then you realized you could die alone and maybe would remain alone after death.  You didn’t know.  It’s that lack of certainty that gave birth to fear.  Then it extrapolated to everything.  You could lose anything and everything.  Including the love of each other.  You even came to think you could lose my love.

Can we?

No.

How do we get rid of fear?  It seems tremendously corrosive at every level every moment.

That’s true.  It’s a great motivator.  How much of what you do every day comes from that motivation?  A lot of it.  Maybe most of it.  To the extent that you arrange your lives and priorities out of respect for what you fear, to that extent you will miss the divine gifts you have aspired to when you chose to become as gods.  To that extent you will retard your growth to godhood.  It’s ironic.  If you had stayed among the animals, you would never have learned the ways of fear, except momentarily, as an appropriate fight-flight response to danger.  But in embarking on the journey to godhood, you entered time, individuality and fear.

Did we blow it?  I mean, are we equipped to overcome fear?  Is it possible we will spend eternity just jerking being jerked back and forth by fear like a yoyo?

Of course, it’s possible.  It can even get comfortable.  It can even be addictive.  The danger signs are when you start saying it’s mature and responsible to walk around responding to and defending yourselves against relationships, crime, death, illness and people with beliefs, skin color, tastes, etc. which are different from yours.

And what overcomes fear is…

What am I the Goddess of?

That would be love.

Yes.  You wanted to be gods.  Love is the main energy we use.  You are learning to use it. 

We are?  Where do you see this happening?  I mean, you have people falling in love and marrying.  They love each other.  At least in the beginning, when there’s all that newness and sex and openness to each other.  And they love their children, most of them.  That seems grounded in instinct.  Outside this nuclear family, you don’t see much.  People gather affiliations about them – friends and people with the same hobbies or outlooks.

There’s a lot of truth in what you say.  You guys have gone with fear much of the time.  You are learning.  There’s a lot of time and you’re taking it.  A look at your history tells the story.  You have 10,000 Alexanders and a handful of St. Francises.  Your history is a long, bloody trek, a story of small numbers of strongmen controlling large numbers of the rest of you.

I noticed that.  Why is that? 

Guess.

Why do strongmen boss the rest of us around and why do we let them?  Fear, of course.  We fear what will happen, which would be persecution and death, if we don’t do what they say.  Or if we don’t go along with the crowd.  Well, we’ve improved a bit there.  Don’t you think?  I mean, we’ve come up with democracy and in the last 200 years it has spread across the globe.  Now it’s in very bad taste not to have it.  That’s something.

Yes, it is something.  It was right here in America and we gave you a big push then.  Even though you had slaves and were trashing the Indians and keeping women in their place and raping nature.  But at least you were starting to throw off the heavy hand of The Man.  You had to do that to even think about getting back on track.  And in the past two centuries, there’s been a lot of energy here in America.  The rest of civilization has not had that kind of energy.

Fear.  It’s all based on the fear of death, isn’t it?  We just want to live.  A long time.  We created our own world out of the thoughts and hopes and drives particular to humanity and we are kind of clueless about what lies outside it, in this world and the next. 

Pretty true.  Except that fear is rooted just as much in fear of love as it is in fear of death.  You experience both as wild, devouring energies which transform you if you let them in.  So you spend your lives and energies trying to keep them out.  Then you die anyway.  And end up in my bosom, so to speak, and I AM the energy of love. (Laughs)

We end up where?

That’s another day and another story.

Ok.  On the love between two people.  How much a role does fear play? 

A big role.  Doesn’t have to.  But that’s the way it is now.  You’re improving.  Or rather, you’ve been trying many things in the hopes of improving.  You invented psychology and talking about feelings in the last century or so.  That was a big one.  And all those tv shows where people talk about feelings and relationships and all their heartbreaks.

You mean Oprah and all those network heartbreaker newsmagazines?

Yes, those.  They are lurid, but they are teaching you about feelings and that you have a right to talk about who you are and to reach for love.  Back to the role of fear in your pairbond relationships.  They are mostly run by fear.  There is love in the beginning.  You all know that.  Then the bloom goes off the rose and you settle into your life of duty and routine, right? 

So the myth goes.

Why does this happen?

Well, you just get used to the person.  It becomes that there are no more surprises.

Please.  Don’t try to snow a goddess.

Ok.  It’s exciting and real in the beginning.  Then we put the jams in.  We are afraid of love, right?

Of course.

What we learn after six months with a person is what they’re afraid of.  Then all we have to do is give them a little dose of it and it’s like putting carbon rods in the reactor to slow it down. 

Good insight.  It may sound cynical, but that’s what you guys do.  You start insisting on the other person giving you things you know they can’t give or that you might want to be getting from yourselves.

But it’s a lie.

Yes.  You’re just afraid of going deeper.

Into?

Into being known.  And yet still loved.  And into pleasure.  Pleasure, the great, scary bugaboo.  You guys evolved about a million times more pleasure receptors than any of the other life forms, you know.

Why?

Same story.  You wanted to be gods.  You saw us and you saw that we have lots of pleasure.  We reward ourselves with it at every turn.  So you got yourself some. 

How did we DO that?  Were there great magicians back in those days?

Well, yes.  But all people back then knew how to manifest change.  You just put two and two together.  You have a vision of what you want and you hold the vision in your mind.  And do a couple of dances around the fire and beat the drum.  That’s to seal the deal.

We really went through a lot to get on the path of the gods, didn’t we?

You spent millennia devoting yourselves to it.  What do you think you did with all that time?  You took care of your food needs in about two hours a week.  The rest of the time you were making love, sleeping or talking to the gods.

And we won pleasure.  We won awareness of the gods.  We learned how to start becoming like them.  And, since we came indoors, we’ve worked pretty hard to sit on all that.

Yes.  And when you guys get in love, you freak out, basically. You like the sex.  You like having someone to relieve the isolation.  But you fear the pleasure – and being really known and loved – more than you fear celibacy and isolation.  So you start controlling the other person.  Bit by bit, you start taking away the freedom and genuineness of the other person.  You all do it.  It’s endemic.  Then, when it comes apart, when it becomes just as isolating as being single, you bail out and you posture as a person who really wanted love, but the other person wasn’t giving it.

You’re mad.

You’re learning.  Things take time.  You guys are getting bored with it all.  Some of you. When enough of you see it’s going nowhere, you’ll stick your heads out again and find the courage to try something new.

You’re cynical.  I can’t believe it.  A Goddess who’s cynical.

(Laughs)  You guys. 

So, in a pairbond situation, you’re saying we really have a lot of opportunity to love and to be known much deeper.

In any relationship.  There’s absolutely no limit, no boundary to the depths at which anyone can be known.  It just keeps unfolding, infinitely in all directions.  And what makes it unfold is?

Love.

Yes.  Love makes it unfold.  And – irony – even the person who’s unfolding doesn’t know what’s way in there to be unfolded.  They are finding out at the same time the lover is.  Actually, what’s way in there is being CREATED at the same time it is being loved and unfolded.  It’s a magnificent process.  It’s godlike.  It’s what we do all the time.

Sounds great.  I feel unused.  And we are capable of loving as you do?

Of course you are.  That’s what it’s all about.











~ 6 ~




What Happens When You Die
Our Infatuation With the Afterlife
Why We’re Here



Goddess, I’m in a lot of pain.

I know.  I love you.  I’m here. 

Sometimes, I think it would be easier if I just died.  Frankly.  Just cash in my chips.  I’ve lived a lot.  And it’s just a struggle, most of it.  Except I couldn’t leave the kids.

Everyone thinks what you just said some of the time.  It’s a struggle because…

Money is a biggie.  The endless struggle for money.  To have enough to live on.  Then to get enough more, so you don’t have to do work you don’t like for money.  And there’s hardly any fun.

Life’s a bitch, isn’t it?

(Laughs)  Goddess!  You’re playing with me.

And?  Don’t you like to play?

Please!  I just said I was thinking about being dead.

Is death better than life?

You’re the one who knows.

Just answer.

Ok.  Death is a door.  On the other side, you still live.  Everyone says it’s real nice and euphoric over there.

How the fuck do they know?

I can’t believe you swore. 

Deities don’t swear?  Oh, that’s right, you guys believe deities are like Sunday school teachers.  That’s not really so, you know.

It’s not?

No.  Who do you think taught you to swear?  Do you think you knew how to swear back when you were just animals?  It’s part of the godhood you picked up.  We love to swear.  We save it up and let it fly.  Did you notice how it emphasized what I was saying?

That people don’t really know for sure what’s after death?

Right. 

What is?  I want to know.

It’s nice and euphoric.

I know.  Everyone knows that.  You can feel it in your bones.  But is there a catch?  Do you lose something when you leave this life?  Are there things you CAN’T do over there?

Yes.  You can’t have your body.  You can’t have fear.  You can’t have pain.  And you don’t get to play the game of life.  You just get to think about it.  You go over all the things you could have done and will do next time.  And you have tons of love.  And you have all this love without any fear of being devoured by it.  Why?  Because you have no body and no pain and no fear of death, since you already are “dead,” although not really.

Did you say next time?  So, there is reincarnation?

Of course there is.  You pretty much get to do anything you want in this universe, now that you’re on the path of gods.  You just have to be willing to learn from it.  And you have to have the courage to try new things.  You don’t just get to be immortal and sit on your ass.  You have achieved immortality, you know.  That’s one of the traits of the gods. Although what you have right now is serial immortality.  You have to keep changing form – body, no body, body, no body.

Do we like evolve to the point where we don’t need to reincarnate and we just sit on the clouds like a god and help run the universe?

I suppose.  That’s a long way off for you guys.  You have a different job.  You just run your world.  You have to do love first.  You have to work through the veils of fear you have around you.  Never mind nirvana. You have to be gods to help run the universe.

Will we get there?

Will you?

Yes.  I think we have it in us to be there right now, actually.  That’s the source of all tragedy, that we are so close, yet keep blowing it. 

You guys are kind of in love with your sense of tragedy about all that.

It is poignant, isn’t it?

Very precious.

Hey, have any of us made it and become gods?  Like Jesus.  Did he?

Yes.  He did.  Several of you have.  But let’s not look up to them too much.  It’s not impossible for individuals to do that.  You just have to apply yourself 24 hours a day all your life.  And ignore a lot on this earth.

Like being in love and having pleasure?

Yes.  The main thing is that you are here to do this all together, to shift the group mind and soul.  It’s not about the afterlife.  Not for you guys. That’s way down the road.

Well, why is there so much obsession with getting to the afterlife and with living a certain way here that enables us to get there and stay there?

Good question.  You won’t like the answer.  Can you guess?

Afraid to love? 

Bingo.  Easy to love gods you can’t see.  Harder to love people you can see.  Easy to go to the big timeout in the sky.  Harder to play the game here. Easy to die.  Harder to love.











~ 7 ~





How We Made Communism Go Away
Why We Really Have AIDS
We Gotta Be Free to Be Who We Really Are




Good morning, Goddess.

Hi.  What kind of tea is that? 

Licorice, mint and lemon grass.  You knew that.  Why did you ask?

Because I love caring to ask.  And I want to hear your voice when you reply.  I love relating to you.

Really?  Well, I love it, too.  I look forward to getting up at 4 in the morning to talk with you.  I love how you’re always there.  Do you have a human face?

To you I do. 

It’s a beautiful face.

As beautiful as you can imagine.  It’s the face you’d want to give the woman you love more than anyone in your whole life and who is perfect in every way.  It’s the face you guys decided to give yourselves when you took hold of your evolutionary process about a million or two years ago.  You know, it was you who decided to make your brain bigger, which made your forehead taller and – to you – more beautiful.  It got rid of those big brow ridges and flat forehead you used to have.  You made your nose and body finer and gave yourselves more of a chin. 

How?

Vision.  You used your vision.  You held the vision of where you wanted to go and your body responded.  It’s like clay.  Reality’s like clay.  Consciousness and intent shape it.

We don’t give ourselves much credit for that, do we? 

No.  All life uses the same process.  But you guys really got it down to an art.  And you move much more quickly than the animals.  You also use it in the short term to make things happen in your world.

Like what?

Oh, the fall of communism.  It was a rotten thing for everyone.  No freedom.  Humanity at its worst.  Lack of everything.  You all knew that early on.  You might have let it go on for centuries, except for the nukes.  You faced the possible destruction of the world every morning when you got up.  Enough of you decided that wasn’t going to work and the vision and energy and intent of growing numbers of you combined and made little things start changing.  People just starting leaving the system.  And they stopped getting punished for it.  In weeks, it all went extinct.  There was no energy in it.  It was beautiful.  People gotta be free.  That’s the way we made you.  And you have picked up the flag.  Your journey is toward increasing freedoms and learning how to use them, which is with love.

We are probably working toward some other big revolutionary changes right now, aren’t we?

You can feel it.  Yes.  You are.

What?

You’re going to stop screwing over nature.

Really.  How are we going to do that?

Mostly, it’s kind of the same as how you rose up and stopped communism.  Enough people are getting the energy and consciousness together to make change happen lovingly.  The other part is that nature’s getting pretty pissed off about you. 

But aren’t the forces of nature essentially you deities?

Essentially. 

Are you pissed off with us?

We don’t get pissed off.  We just move how we move, with abundance, vigor and joy.  If you go up against that, you just don’t fit in very well.

Well, what about the shift in consciousness going on within us?  Is that going to do the trick? 

Maybe.  The shift is toward love, definitely. 

How is love going to help us stop screwing over the earth.

Well, it’s not going to be that you learn to love the animals better, although you are doing that.  It’s going to be that you spend your time and energy loving each other better.  Much better.

That sounds kind of altruistic.  We don’t do very well at altruism over the long run.

True.  Altruism is a fantasy.  There’s no altruism in nature.  Except in our love for you guys.  And for all life.  What you’re going to have to do is to learn to put a finer point on it.

What do you mean?

You guys have to have self-interest and pleasure in the mix.  You’ve tried to suppress those needs over many centuries now, but it isn’t going to work.  You pretty much know that now.  When you deny the pleasure and self-interest of the individual, you guys get real nasty.  You start having nasty visions like how wonderful it would be if everyone thought the same and marched to the tune of one powerful guy – or one powerful god --  and you start building ovens for the people who don’t fit in.

So, is what I hear you saying is that we are screwing over nature because we are screwing over ourselves?  In other words, we are screwing over ourselves by not having a legitimate vision of self-interest and pleasure?  Which, of course, we share with each other?  And above all, with love?

That’s pretty much it.  How you treat yourselves is how you treat the world.  If you are ripping yourselves off and cutting off your own fulfillment and pleasure then what does it matter if you do the same to all other life?  It’s exactly how you Americans treated the Indians and blacks, by the way.  You had spent centuries enslaving yourselves and killing off large parts of yourselves.  Why shouldn’t everyone suffer like you were?

Ok, how are we cutting off our own fulfillment and pleasure?

Let me count the ways.

You’re angry.  You do have moods.  And you do get angry with us. 

Ok, we get angry.  It’s fleeting, though.  Now, why don’t you just explain to me why you guys cut off the immense capacity for fulfillment and pleasure which we gave you and which you further evolved.  I want to hear this.   And by the way, your sex is a joke.  We gave you – and you helped evolve – a potential for sexuality on the level of the gods ourselves.  And to us it looks like you are barely using it.  You know, that kind of consciousness applied to a trait will make it disappear.  I say all this with love.  I’m very concerned. 

Of course you are.  Well, I am too.  We have so many strictures around sex.  And now there’s AIDS out there.

Wait a minute.  AIDS is not “out there.”  You guys take responsibility for what’s popping up in your lives.  AIDS is there because it works for you.  You pulled it in.  It came to roost where it found a home. 

AIDS is a plague, a curse.  No one wants it.  We were having a great time with the opening up to sensuality and peace and love and community and all that in the sixties and seventies. 

Exactly.  You were starting to have a great time.

Oh.  I get it.  No.  Please.  This is not manifestation of our own problem with, like, opening up to sexuality.

Afraid of love.  Again.

I don’t know what to say.  I really did think things were going to change in the sixties and that people we’re starting to, like the song says – c’mon people now, smile on your brother, everybody get together, try to love one another, right now.  It was so magnificent.  It was a giant tidal wave of love.  I thought nothing could resist it and that everyone would just want to ride it.

The things about waves is either you ride them or you get engulfed in them and drown.  A lot of people did ride it.  And it pushed you guys in a direction in which you are still going.  It changed your course.  It was just a start, though, in a new direction.  Those who did not like that wave did all they could to stop it. 

How?

They demonized it by focusing on the drug use. And they focused on the misfits, like Manson. And they shot some people.

Love.  Why does love make people so afraid? 

Please with the “make people afraid” business!  It takes heart to love.  Even more to the point, it takes heart to be loved.  And to do that, you really have to be yourself and lavish love on yourself while you are doing that.  That’s where you guys have been blowing it.
I mean, others can only love you in the ways and to the extent that you have learned to really, truthfully and confidently delight in your own true, individual nature.  There.  That’s it.

And we don’t.

No. You guys have for millennia thought it was good and wonderful if you all tried to be the same.  And you beat up and demonize and burn the oddballs who aren’t trying to be the same.  I mean, things just work better, don’t they, if everyone agrees and goes along with the program?

Well, what if someone delights in and embraces their own, true individual nature and they’re a homicidal psychopath? 

That’s always the worry, isn’t it?  That the worst case will rise up and ruin everything.  But under your conformity model, could history have been any bloodier?  I mean, you guys came up with the power to destroy the world and stood ready to actually use it for half a century. 

This is hard to talk about. 

It’s a real sticking point for you guys.  Freedom.  Your capacity for cruelty.  Your fear of love.  And the shame and blame you heap on each other and yourselves for all your rather foul deeds.  Given your capactiy for malice and violence, how can you grant yourselves more freedom?  How can you lean unto your own instincts even more?  Wouldn’t it be better to strap on the hair shirt of rigid conformity to a narrow ideal and just try to live within that?

We are trying to do that all over the world.  The rise of fundamentalism…

Yes.  That will stick a thumb in the dike for a while.  It never lasts.  It’s too boring.  It squashes the individual under the big stone of doctrine.  And you guys always try to say all that doctrine is coming from us.  Hey, take responsibility.  It’s coming from you.  And it always leads back to the thing it’s trying to suppress, which is your own capacity for murder.  Which is not love.  Which brings us back to the original problem.

Afraid to love?

Afraid to love. Afraid of pleasure.  Afraid to accept the real divinity which you have snatched from us.  Well, we let you have it.  We were very impressed you dared to want it. We always go with boldness like that.  You did well with it for millennia.  Don’t forget that.  But lately, you have curled up in a little ball.  What is it with you guys?  Do you feel, like guilty for snatching divinity from us?  Hey, it’s ok, believe me.  Snatching is good.  Crapping on it is not.













~ 8 ~





How to Make Friends With a God
Cancer
Less Sex Makes You More Spiritual?  Yeah, Right.


Goddess, I’m here.

Me too.

I can’t sleep.

I’ve been waiting for you.

That’s so comforting.   I want that so.  You know, for a long time I’ve yearned for a personal deity like all the Christians say they have with Jesus.  They say he actually walks with them and talks with them and all that.  Is that true for them?

Yes.  And you want that?

I want that personalness of a deity or a guardian angel or something.  I don’t want all the hellfire and thou shalts and original sin, judgment day, on and on.  Nothing against the Christians. 

You’ve been talking to me for some years now.  Do you find that personalness here?

Frankly, no.  You seem grand and a bit remote.  Until I started talking to you on my computer, that is.  I find you very close at hand here.  I’m surprised.  I’m really looking forward to coming here in the wee hours and being with you.

Am I personal? 

Yes.  I’ve been taking the time to know you.  And you have been here, taking the time for one individual, even though you are the Goddess of love for the whole universe.  May I talk to you anytime? 

Yes.

I love the way you say yes.  I can actually hear your voice.  You draw out the word.  I hear the word in my heart.

I love that word.  Yes.  It is my essence.

Yes.  I feel that.  Do you care what happens to one individual or are events just left to themselves to wheel through creation?  In other words, do you hear prayers and answer them?

You know I do.  The first time you prayed to me, out in the desert of Eastern Oregon, you met the love of your life, S., five days later.  That was 1985.  You tell the story to all your friends.  And you always say it was me who did it.

Yes.  I know.   I don’t doubt you.  What I am asking is if you are there, like, daily.  For the little things of life.  And the medium things.

I’m there for everything.  We all are.  You can establish a relationship with any deity.  It’s like making a friend.  You get to know and trust each other and learn each other’s ways.  You learn how to honor each other, which is different for every person and deity.  Soon, the energy is moving and increasing and becoming warm and good.  Soon, you are doing things for each other and looking forward to seeing each other and telling your stories.

It’s not just the deity who does things for the human?

No, it’s reciprocal.

You have done a lot for me.  What can I do for you?

You can be here with me.  I love these talks we are having.

You do?  I just assumed it was me getting all the benefit, since you are a Goddess and can have anything you want.

That’s not really so.  I can’t have your love unless you give it to me.  We have the love of all the animals, but yours must be given.  That’s because you are demigods - almost.  You have free will and the powers of creation.

I never thought of it this way.  So you actually want our love?  And is this so of all deities?

Yes.

Why don’t we seem to give it to you? 

You don’t think you’re worthy to give love to gods.  But you are.  Your love can be very sweet and rich.  It certainly was in the old days.  I’m talking about the paleo- and neolithic eras here.  And in much of ancient historical times.

We have a self-esteem problem with the gods?

You do.  Most days, you just plow ahead with your lists of things to do today and don’t even bother to say hi. 

What are we thinking?

That you have to do it yourself.  It’s your thing from way back when you guys shifted out of the web of nature and got on the path of self-determination.  As we said, that was a necessary step, but it is not your essence.  You have to outgrow it someday.  You are basically ready to outgrow it now.

Why now?

Because at the same time you guys are approaching many evolutionary leaps, you are also starting to endanger yourselves and this world in a big way.  You have to find your heart to get through this.

How are we endangering ourselves and the world?

You answer.

We are growing out of control.  And with only marginal increase in wisdom.

Growing out of control.  That’s interesting.  Now what thing is famous for growing out of control?

That would be cancer.

And what disease does just about every other person over 40 seem to be getting these days?

Are you saying there’s some connection?

Yes.  You grow destructively; you pull in cancer.  You have fear around sex; you pull in AIDS.  It shows the power of your creative energies.  But, you guys are not paying attention.  And nature is going to get your attention. 

Nature?  But you are nature.  You deities.  Are you not?

Yes.  In a way.  We created nature.  We set it in motion. We inhabit it.  We flow our energies in it.  But  it is very hard to change the nature of nature.  It is set up to deal with excesses of any kind.  We structured it with integrity and that’s how it operates.

What’s nature going to do to us?

It’s doing it now.  It’s shutting down your sexuality. 

What do you mean?  How is it doing that?

How many people do you know who talk about what fun and joy and beauty their sexuality brings to them?

Ok.  That would be about none.  Maybe one or two.  Why is it shutting it down? 

Because you guys are leaving the heart out of it.  You are long on making more people.  You are short on making love.

It’s even common to find religions that emphasize that sex will lead you down the path into darkness and evil and you will lose your soul and all that.  Many people say that doing without sex will make you higher spiritually.

I know.

And then there’s love within sex.  Or sex within love.  Why do we consider it inimical to spiritual realization?

Hey, I’ve been waiting for some human to tell me that for a long time.  Let’s hear it.

Ok.  You just seem more clear when you’re not all involved in sex and the ups and downs and pulls and pushes of relationships.  Or so they say.  I’ve felt it to be that way at times.

More clear?

You know, more simple.  More in your own energy.  More in control of your own life.  More aware of the simple beauties of the day.

Well, it’s nice to take a break from anything, I suppose. 

So, what’s the truth?

Same story.  Afraid of love.  Love is bigger than you are.  So is sex.  They are like the same thing, you know.  Love is good because you have sex.  Sex is good because you have love.  However, they can’t be controlled.  That’s what scares you.  You guys have generalized your autonomy trip so it infuses everything.  But love and sex will never fall under your sway.  They are the last and greatest vestiges of your ancient life.  They are the heart and soul of the fires you snatched from the gods.  They are the gods.  And now, we are that which is withering in you.  When you love each other and give your bodies to ecstasy, you honor me.  That is how you pray to me.

Do you gods want us to succeed?

Of course we do.  But we cannot save you.  You have grown out of our control.  You have free will.  You are like the adolescent you finally can’t ground.  You have to let them go.  That happened millennia ago.  We will always be here for you.  We can help, but….

Are you trying to say we’re basically on our own?

I was tempted there for a second.  But no.  You are far from being gods.  You need us.  And we you.  You would be desperately alone if we left you.  You would die.

Of loneliness?  And despair?

Yes.















~ 9 ~


Why We Love Children
Our Journey Into Isolation
Monogamy



Goddess.

Yes.

Why do I love our children so?  We loved them before they were born more than I ever loved anyone in the flesh. 

They will receive all the love you have to give.  They don’t care what or who you are, what you look like, how much money you have or what you’ve done or failed to do.  They love you as I love you.  They live in the present only.  All their soul is packed into this moment.  And they come to you fresh from the world of the gods.  Their souls emanate that.  Since you come from the world of the gods, too, they remind you of who you are.  And of what  matters.

What matters?

Love.  Nature perfectly reflects the consciousness of the gods in this.  Children come at the time in your lives when you most need them, so as to cut through the illusions of adulthood and remind you what’s real.  These are the greatest energies: when you are born, when you fall in love with another person, when you know divine sex with them, when children come out of this and when you are dying.  These are all direct contact with the gods.  And with the world you knew in your formative times, back in the paleo- and neolithic.  Actually, all moments are direct contact with the gods, but these are the contacts that are kind of right in your face.

I just find myself wondering so much about how we miss out on love.  Given all this access to the wisdom of love and having come from and going back to the world of the gods, how can we go though our lives just passing like ships in the night with most people, including, most of the time, our partner and children.

All you have to do is have a near-death experience to understand the value of it all.  Or just be lonely and a long way from home.  Or go broke.  Or get cancer.  Or get dumped by the one you love.  Or, I should say, the one you haven’t been loving so well.

It kind of focuses the attention to know great loss. 

Yes, but in all these things I mentioned, you really lose nothing.  You simply get pared down until all you have left is the capacity to love and be loved.  By any number of people.  Everything is stripped away.  Everything except love.  Then, in the midst of your seeming pain and loss, you realize your life has been made up of these things you have just lost and that you are not well supported by love. 

But what if you lose a child?  Or your whole family in a car wreck?  Nothing is worse than losing a child.

That’s true.  It is life’s greatest pain.  To open oneself up to the love of a child is to open oneself up to immense vulnerability to loss and pain.  To suffer that loss is to be violently reminded that that innocence, goodness and full-functioning love has already been lost in yourselves – and you are reminded of that loss.  You adore your children excessively for what is missing in yourselves.  It is a bit of a burden for them.  Better to regenerate all that innocence and goodness in yourselves than worship it in them.

Ok.  The issue is love, here and now, in our grownup selves, right?  We hear about that all the time.  We all try in some way.  And we all seem to keep going mostly on the same track that we learned from our parents.  Most of whom weren’t doing that well either.

And?

Well, sometimes I just feel shitty about there being any hope on this, for myself or for humanity in general, that we will ever change.  How did we ever get stuck in this?  Why can’t we love better, more?  Why do I walk around feeling guilty about it?

A lot of what’s happening for you guys right now is your individuality trip.  It is a passage, an experiment.  In short, you gave up the tribe about 5,000 years ago and learned to build houses with walls around them.  That was nice.  But it cut you off from one another.  You don’t have that ancient web of support you had for 99 percent of your time on this earth.  You miss it.  Your hearts are broken. And you don’t know it.  When you have the tribal web, you are living in the tree of life.  You are connected and rooted.  If one branch falls off, there are hundreds more left.  If a mate leaves you, there are dozens who comfort you and hang out with you and eat with you.  You are always connected to dozens of children.  And your children are connected to dozens of adults.  In your tribal days, it was not so thunderingly awesome when you had your own children because you were connected to so many others and loved them and saw their births and hung out with them and watched them grow up. And if one died, there was that web of support and interconnection with all the other children who lived.  And if a parent died, which they did a lot, the children simply shifted into the care of other adults who already loved them on a daily basis.

It sounds wonderful, frankly.  Why have we given that up?  

You’re just trying it the other way.  You’re reducing your interactions to just one mate and a handful of your own biological children. 

Just one mate?  Isn’t that natural and divinely intended and all that?

No.  You already are doing serial monogamy.  That’s very different from the order you lived under only a century ago.  Shift happens.  Back in the paleo/neolithic days, you practiced a loose group marriage.  It worked fine.  You are not intended to bond any particular way.  And besides, you have acquired free will.  You can do as you choose.

Why have we done monogamy for the past 5,000 years?  What were we trying to gain?  What is there to learn there?  There seems to be immense evidence that monogamy goes against our nature.

It was born out of fear.  It has since led to unexpected depths.  And it still is supported mainly by fear.  You guys came up with it in one of your periods of existential fear, when you found yourselves quite alone on your journey to godhood.  You had left nature and the company of the gods.  You were successful as a species, so that your population had increased.  You suddenly found yourselves competing for territory against your fellow species with a passion that led you, for the first time, to kill each other on a large scale.  You were deeply shocked about yourselves.  You were in grief.  For the first time, you found you had to build walls around your towns in order to survive.

We were walling ourselves off.  Against man and nature. 

And each other, among your own people.  It spread.

There was no turning back then. 

No.  You had made your commitment to your journey.  In time, you would forget why you started the journey and where you were going, but that’s part of the game, too.  You knew that would happen when you began. 

So how do we get to monogamy in this?

You all fell into the grip of fear.  You could be killed at any time if you let your guard down.  The women and children would be killed or made slaves.  You entered a period of constriction and lack.  Which you are only just starting to come out of.  In the tribal web, the theme is expansion and abundance.  There is enough time.  There is enough love.  There is enough food.  Relax.  Live in the present.  In the city, it’s the opposite.  There is not enough.  Get uptight.  Live in the future.  However, you needed to experience and learn all this.  It is necessary for your journey to godhood.  It makes you fall back on your individual resources.  That’s what gods do.  We are very strong in our individual resources and very strong in our tribal web of love.

But why monogamy?

You thought you could possess each other and that would make you safer against loss.  Rather, the man thought he could possess the woman, then he would control a source of love and children.  He would know the kids were his alone.  And the woman, in this climate of lack and danger, thought she could possess a source of sustenance and physical survival against war and hunger, for herself and the children. 

So, it’s not being done from love.  It’s being done from fear.

That’s right. Essentially.  However, only in recent years, you are seeing some couples go quite deep into the regions of love with each other.  That is new.  As we said, love is infinite, so the exploration and enjoyment of each other can go on forever.  That takes a lot of heart.  It is so easy to get complacent and just let the routine do it.  And about survival, you kind of have that wired.  The reasons monogamy began are no longer present. You are starting to get war under control.  War is in very bad taste now.  Like smoking cigarettes.  Like rape.  Like men not helping with chores at home.  Like using racial epithets. Like parking in a handicapped zone. 

Those all seem to have something in common.

They are all quite thoughtless behavior. 

They are all quite loveless behavior.  So, why do we still do monogamy, if it originated from fear?

It is still basically run by fear.  And lack.  Only the tiniest minority are using it to explore any depths of love.  That is, after the first year or so.  Each holds immense power over the other.  If one leaves, especially when there are children, it devastates the life of the other – and the children – forever.  No one ever really gets over divorce. 

But being able to divorce is a basic freedom.  People change and must move on.

To stop being close to a particular person is a normal change in life.  However, the way society is set up now, the people leaving a pairbond have virtually nowhere to go.  Monogamous marriage represents the island in the stream.  In divorce, you leave the island and go into the river.  You may have friends to talk to about your changes, but there is no web of love there.  You must enter suffering.  And, of course, so do the children.  It is usually so paralyzing and painful that people want only to get back into a monogamous situation.  Just to stop the isolation and pain.

And that’s not love.

It’s not freedom either.  There’s no real choice going on here.

If there’s no freedom, we can hardly be fulfilling our destinies as budding gods.

That’s true.  However, as I keep restating, it is a necessary passage, a good experiment.  You had to do it.  You are learning immense amounts from it.

Such as?

The main thing you are learning is isolation.  It’s nice to be alone sometimes, but this is different.  You are learning, over 5000 years now, what it’s really like to be isolated from the web of love.  It’s making you very wise.  And very slowly.  You have been working inside this belief that there’s this one other person who can really know and love you.  And you have to find that person.  And it’s very, very rare and precious when you find it.  It is a once-in-a-lifetime kind of thing.  And going though that seems to authenticate your belief that love is rare. 

And love is not rare.

(Laughs)  You get it!  Love is not rare.  The universe is made of it.  All the gods are made of it.  You guys spent about 4 million years living immersed in the web of it.  As we said, it’s only in the past 5,000 years that you have created this bubble around yourselves where you become the exception among all living things.

So we have made this big myth around finding the soulmate and bonding for life and till death do us part, on and on.? 

In that system, you have to live the belief that if one other being can rescue you from this river of isolation, then that one other person can also put you back in the river. The main damage from this is that it puts you in defiance of gods and nature.  There is no isolation.  You guys have managed to create a special hell where great numbers of you actually have managed to live isolated and impoverished, while surrounded by the abundant and loving energies of all other life and all the gods.

The real damage, I think I am beginning to see, is that we think it’s somehow natural to know isolation.  That it’s part of the package of existence.  That it’s intended by God or the gods.

Yes.  It’s also why you cry out for us gods so much, yet experience us so little.  You seek us out in large part to relieve your own devastating isolation.  We have given you everything to relieve that isolation.  We have given you the web of love, the tree of life.  It is right there in front of you. 

But right now, we have to do this experiment of being individuals doing it our own way and trying to become gods.

Yes.  You do.  I think you are done with that experiment, though.  Or nearly so.  Just take a look at your current century.  You have really maxed it out.  Two world wars, nukes, assassinations of all your heroes, jihads, pollution run wild, on and on.  And all this done by a world of broken-hearted people.  You’re changing now, though.  Lots of you are done with all that and are moving on now.

Really?  What are we moving on to?

Love.

Does all this mean monogamy is going to end?

No.  It will always be with you.  It is a great laboratory for the development of the soul.  And so are the other ways.  Monogamy is expensive, though.  That’s why it will retreat.

Expensive?

It takes a lot of money and land and other resources.  The earth can’t support you in that.

What do you mean?

It’s very full of itself.  It’s crammed with self-importance.  It requires a separate house and land and a lifelong mortgage and two cars, and its own lawnmower, washer, dryer, tv, VCR, computer and microwave.  To the people in it, it becomes the central drama of existence, much more important than the fate of the earth or the other living things or any other people.  Not only can the earth not support it, the people in it can barely support it.  They are both working to pay for it all.  They are not there for the children.  No one is.

This does not sound very positive or supportive.  Just about everyone really believes in developing the love within the pairbond family.

I know.  I’m just answering your questions truthfully.












~ 10 ~



Wrathful Gods
Human Violence
How We Can Blow the Game


Good morning, Goddess.

Hello.

Sometimes I don’t know what to ask you.  Here you are sitting with me, willing to answer the great questions of mankind.  You have a way of showing me how the question is already answered in my heart. 

Let’s just talk then.

Ok.  What I just really want to know, behind all my questions is, do you love me?  And do you love us humans?  And are we going to be ok or are we going to destroy ourselves?  And are you going to let us?

I love you.  You personally and all of you.  I both choose to do it and can do no other than love you.  And I speak for all the deities. We are made of the same stuff, gods and humans.  You are expressions and extensions of us. It is impossible for us not to love you.  And we are expressions and extensions of you.  All the times you guys have looked up to us with unworthiness – these are the times when you were just busy getting lost in the frontiers of your newly developing individuality.  It can get lonely.

You know, no matter what spiritual path I go onto, it seems I can never stop acting like what I was raised to be, a Christian.  I’m still afraid of God and Jesus and their judgments and demands that I live perfectly sinless and all that.  I know it may be a dumb question, after all that you’ve told me, but are they waiting to slap me into hell for eternity if I don’t live this one life right?

They’re here.  And they’re not waiting to do that to anyone, no matter what anyone says.  They’re nice deities.  Just like me. 

Are they misrepresented in the scriptures then?

Yes.  Men did all that.  When they wrote of wrath and fear, they were falling into that state of unworthiness I mentioned.  There is no unworthiness with the divine.  All are worthy, all gods, all humans, all animals, all life, all rocks, all of it.

But the wrathful doctrines of many of these religions really seem to have brought about so much intolerance, fear, war, hatred.  And so many campaigns to get everyone to either fall into line or die.

The unknown is scary. You guys have been on a big, big journey into the unknown over the last 5,000 years. You didn’t want us at your elbow, looking over your shoulder, always there to provide the support and meaning we had given you over the previous 4 million years.  In times of loneliness and fear, it was only natural you would turn, even unconsciously, to a larger power.  You kind of longed to be dominated.  Things are so much easier then.  You don’t have to think so much for yourself.  You don’t have to take responsibility when things don’t work.  So you set up these snorting, dyspeptic gods above your heads.  And you mimicked them in your kings, who stood ready to take your life if you didn’t do things exactly their way.

I notice you’re always putting a positive spin on things and that when you look at the big picture, we always look kind of noble.

It’s not spin.  It’s just the truth.  You guys are noble. No other life form has tried to do what you guys are doing.  It is amazing and good.

The question is, will we make it?  Will we become gods, like you?

Well, I don’t want to give away the ending.  Also, I can’t know the future when it comes to creatures with free will like you guys.  Ok, I sort of know.  What do you think?

Of course, I think we will become as gods.  We will become gods rather.  The signs are there.  Like looking at a puppy with big paws.  You know she’s going to be big.

Well put.  I agree.  You have good lines and breeding.   There is nothing standing in your way.  If anything does stand in your way, it always comes from you.

Like all those despots and absolutist kings and the endless warfare and racism and repression of women?

I know you guys like to look at those things as obstacles to your higher calling.  However, they would only be that if you stayed in them forever.  If they became locked in as your final nature.  Obviously, they are not.  You are always discussing these violent and dominating behaviors among yourselves and in your magazines and tv.  Therefore, they are always in ferment and change.  They are in the growing cell mass of evolution.  All those seemingly horrible things you guys have done were experiments.  You are on your way to godhood.  Gods have to have done it all.  We have to be capable of it all.

You’ve been mass murderers?

Oh yes.  Look around you.  All must die.  That’s the way we set it up.  But to us, there is no death.  To you, too, in you clear moments.  However, death is not the big thing that happens in war.  It’s the unkindness.  That’s what really marks your soul.  And you all come home from wars – or from that little unkindness you did at the office – and you grieve it for years.  You turn it over and over in your souls and from that long, slow process, you identify with the person you have been unkind to.  You become them and you live their hurt.  That’s a magical act.  You become someone’s heart.  That’s an act of godhood.

It’s love.

There you go. That’s how you’ll get to become gods.

When I am reflecting on an unkindness I’ve done, I notice I feel guilty and unworthy.  This is essentially the set of emotions I feel around the deities I was brought up with.  They are so perfect and I’m full of spite, jealously, anger, unkindness, fear.

I know.  You guys needn’t separate yourselves from us deities like that.  We have all those emotions and have committed any act you can think of.  The Greeks had that right in their mythologies about us.  It helped them feel more human.  Or rather, more godlike. 

This does not help me respect you.

We don’t want your respect, really.  How about if you respect yourself? 

What will that do?

Everything.  It’s essential to your becoming gods.

How can I respect what Stalin, Hitler and Ghengis Khan did?

By realizing there is no death.  There is only love or unkindness.  And even when you guys get real nasty for a long time, it just means you are going to spend that much time or longer working your way back through the forest toward love.  You have to.  You guys have created a tremendous sense of justice inside your own hearts.  You did that yourselves, on your evolutionary journey, since you left the fold of nature.  If you are unkind to another, you will never let yourselves off the hook until you have worked it out somehow.

How do we do that?  I know we have the capacity to wallow in guilt for a long time.  That does not exactly help us evolve.

But it does.  You finally get tired of hating yourself for your unkindness.  That’s when you start using your power to find another way.

Which is?

To love.  What you find is that you have to begin at home.  With yourself.  You guys have a limited capacity to bore yourselves.  So you get bored and then you start using your creative powers.  You realize, hey, I’m not THAT bad.  And that’s the beginning.  You start loving yourself.  You start feeling good.  You guys have to feel good.  That’s your magnetic north.  That’s why you’ll become gods.

So we will become gods!

I think that’s obvious.  But don’t forget, you can lose the game on a technicality.

What?

If you destroy the world.














~ 11 ~



Nature of the Soul
Nostalgia for Eden
Origins of the Universe

Hi Goddess.

Good morning

I have this little Venus de Milo on my desk as I write.   Does she do you justice?

Yes.  I’ve always loved her.  I put my energy in her when she was made.  The original, I mean.  And your little idol, too, because she means a lot to you.

She is missing the arms.

Yes.  The original had her arms reaching out to you, holding a cup.

What was in the cup?

Love.  It was being offered to humans.

Why have idols been frowned on?

Because they work.

What do they do?

They are like flowers and a poem being offered to a lover.  It is hard to resist the sweetness.  We come be with you.  An idol is like a transmitter or telephone.  You call us up on it and we say hello.  Of course it can all be done without an idol.  But it’s a sweet devotion.  You are saying you still care about us and want to draw close.

Goddess, I have a question.

Shoot.

Why are we here?  People are always asking that.  I mean why are we here on earth in these seemingly separate bodies walking around?

Because you want to be.  You get tired of being in spirit.  You have assimilated all you can from previous existences.  You want to come off the bench and get in the fray.  It’s natural.

Why do we forget where we came from practically the second we get here?

It’s part of the game.  Like when you walk into a great football stadium with all the shouting.  Do you for a moment remember your outside life?  No.  You are in that game completely, whether as a player or spectator.  It’s the only way you can take life seriously – if most of you believe that’s all there is.  Otherwise, you might say, what the hell, who cares, it’s only a game.  Or you might say, hey, daddy’s going to rescue me at the end of this game and I won’t have to play any more and be scared any more.

So it matters how we play it?

Yes.  It shapes the soul.

Why should I care how the soul gets shaped?

If you guys were still animals, it wouldn’t matter.  You would do everything the same for a zillion years.  But you left all that.  You are highly evolutionary creatures now.  You are shaping your own souls.  How you end up depends on how you live each life, personally and collectively.

Is daddy or mommy – you know, the gods -- going to rescue us at the end of the game?

Sort of.  But not really.  You get here and you sort of want to be rescued for a little while.  So we draw around you and love you.  Then you get enough of that.  You repeat what you did back in the paleolithic – you want your autonomy.  You go right back to working on yourselves and planning for the next life.  Most of you are very eager to get back in the game.

What is the soul?  Do we have the same one for eternity?  Is the human soul different from an animal soul?  Can it be lost or killed or sent to hell?

The soul cannot die.  It is made of the same stuff as we gods are.  You are the same soul forever.  It’s what is really you.  You are not aware of it much when you are doing your daily round of stuff.  When you really become aware of it is at those big moments in life – falling in love, having a baby, coming near death.  If you take a big blow to your body, like a car wreck, you are laying there really with nothing but your soul.  That’s when you know what matters and why you are here.  About whether it can go to hell?  There is no hell.

Why do so many of us believe in hell?

It’s a metaphor.  It means when you are out of touch with reality and just won’t let go.  Mostly it’s on earth.  You forget who you are and why you are here and you assign importance to things that have not much to do with your soul and with love.  The idea of hell mostly got going because people wanted to control other people and they had to have something to threaten them with if they didn’t behave.  Hell is really when these people get their way and you have to live under their earthly power.  You stop being free.   

But isn’t not being free a good lesson too?  Certainly we created that as another learning laboratory?

Yes.  You did.  A lot of the tyranny you guys have practiced comes from your nostalgia.  Many of you – and all of you at some times – long for that simplicity and order of your days immersed in nature and the gods.  You knew what to do.  You knew who had the power.  There was no freedom or choice.  There was no fear, worry or loneliness.

It sounds like Eden.

That’s exactly what it was.  A Golden Age.  It was like being a baby and having love all around you and family to meet all your needs.  Obviously, it can’t last.  But the longing for it is powerful in you guys.  You have built many religions on that longing.  Unconsciously, many of you want to die so you can go back to those warm, fuzzy surroundings.  It won’t work, though.  As soon as you get to paradise, you just get bored again and realize you simply can’t escape your journey. 

We are prisoners of our freedom.

Very good!  Very funny.  You are committed to your freedom.  Every time you try to escape it, you create misery for yourselves.  You create hell.  You got on this horse – freedom, autonomy – and the only way it works is to learn to ride that horse.

So it’s love and it’s freedom.

Those are your two inescapables.  You have to have them.  You have to ride them with all your hearts.  You have to take them up as your work.  Sometimes you guys try to give up your freedom and surrender your will to us gods, in the belief that it’s what we want of you.  Believe me, it’s not.  You act like all we want is to have you back under our power and boss you around.  Forget it.  When you get in that place, you are really a pain in the ass.  It’s really annoying to us when you guys pretend to speak for the will of the gods in all your wars and persecutions of each other.  That is a definition of hell, if you want one.

Still, we’re kind of cute when we do that, aren’t we?

Yeah, right.  Actually, we do get a kick out of it.  It’s like watching adolescents running away from home and spending the night in their tree house in the rain.  Then they say the hell with it and come back home and head for the refrigerator.

I have another question.  How did the universe get started?  Was there a Big Bang?  And will it all come crunching down and end?  And if so, what will happen to us?  Do we have any control over any of this?

The universe is energy.  As you have seen from your explorations of the planets and from looking into deep space with the Hubble telescope, nothing is anything like you expected.  All theories fall apart once you get out there and see what’s really happening.  The flux is tremendous.  Rules are made and broken every second.  Your theories will not hold up.  It’s just too wild.  So, it can go in any direction at any time. 

It’s you guys.  It’s the gods at play, isn’t it?  You’re big and vast and wild and ceaseless and unpredictable.

Yes.  You are personifying those forces.  We are not humans.  We are energies and intelligences.

So, the vast universe is inhabited by consciousness.  Which is you gods.

You could look at it that way.  Everything has consciousness.  Often, you guys are kind of amazed when you ponder that.  You have the illusion that you are the only consciousness around sometimes.  But that’s only a projection of the loneliness and isolation you are experimenting with.  Consciousness pervades all energy and matter.  And you call it the gods.  Which is a good word for it.  It enables you to grasp it and communicate with it.

You make it sound remote and uncaring.  These vast energies careering through infinity.

Vast and little energies are moving through everything everywhere.  Including in you guys.  None of them are remote.  All the energies that you guys want and need are right here around you.  They have to be.  You could not have come into being without them all around you.  When you feel the seeming vastness and isolation and uncaringness of the universe, you are feeling your own journey into individuality.  That’s all.  It is a crossing, a transition, a chapter in the book.  You have left the womb.  You’re out of the cradle.  You’re walking.  Now dance. 

Now we must embrace the freedom we have struggled for. 

Yes.  You are.  You are almost done savoring your loneliness.  Now you learn to love.  And to dance.  We miss you.













~ 11 ~




Doing Something With Your Life
Spirituality, Not Religion
Needing Each Other Again


Good morning, Goddess.

Good morning.

I have a question.  How important is it that we do something big and great with our lives, when you tell us that loving is what’s most important and, anyway, we’re just going to die and go to paradise anyway?

It’s important that you do what’s in your heart, regardless of how much time you think there is or whether you think life is not long enough.  It’s how you play the game that shapes the soul.  No matter what you are doing with your life, there are always constant opportunities to love those around you.  And to love us deities.  And each connection that you make and take leads to many more.  If you look back on your life, you will see that you met the people you really love because you were usually busy just kind of being nice to some ordinary person and that led to the special person.

So, love is always what’s happening, no matter what the great mission we think we are on?

Yes.  However, the mission matters, too.  That’s where you really love yourself.  By giving yourself what you really love to do.  It’s intensely selfish.  It’s ok to work for money sometimes, too.

Many people do work for money.  They often make it sound like they had no choice. 

They didn’t want any choice this time around.  Many people spend their lives just kind of thinking things over or taking a time out.  When you are ready to do bigger work or have a mission and do what you really love, then you are ready.  There is lots of time.

Unless we trash the world.

Well, there’s that.  When you guys really start doing that, you will kind of all have an automatic mission together.  And you will respond.  When the world starts going down the tubes, there won’t be any environmentalists; there will just be humans trying to survive and set the world right again.  It will be a vast, worldwide mission in which all people will join.

How on earth can 6 billion people get coordinated and work together on something this big?  The mission will be mainly to just stop ourselves from multiplying, sprawling and polluting, won’t it?

Yes.  It will be a time of great humbling and recreating your values.  The first casualty will be organized religion, which has done nothing to address any of this.  You’ll start having spirituality, not religion.  You guys will pull back from your sprawling and building and start restoring great tracts of earth to natural state.  Stuff like that.  You’ll get real.  You’ll leave off with the self-obsession.  You’ll start hanging out with each other.  You’ll start having better sex.  And fewer offspring, of course.

Let’s see, that would be make love, not waste.  Or something.  Now, what do you mean, we’ll want spirituality, not religion?

You know the difference.  Everyone does.

Spirituality is what you know in your heart about the divine.  Religion is an institution of dogma, creed, scriptures, set behaviors.

Pretty much.  You’re already moving strongly into spirituality.  There is a hard core of religionists who become ever more enthusiastic, vocal and dedicated as they see the growing threat to their institutions. 

What do they want?

They want certitude. They are in a cycle where they don’t want the ups and downs inherent in being free, self-determined creatures.  They’re still trying to say we gods are in control.  We are kind of in control of the universe, but not so much in control of you guys.  In fact, we are not even that much in control of the universe.  We created it out of our vision and imagination.  And once set in motion, we just kind of use it as our channels to move and play and love and create in.  We can’t break the laws of nature, even though we set them up.  However, we can make a lot of things happen or not happen within that system.

Why don’t you just wave your hand and fix us?  Why don’t you make us more compassionate and wise and less greedy and avaricious and rapacious?

We can’t.  In fact, you already are unimaginable compassionate and wise.  You see that all the time, like, oh, say that plane crash in Sioux City, Iowa, where everyone went out there and helped those people and got them to the hospital and put them up in their homes.  That’s what your hearts are made of.  Really.  That’s who you are.  You are very heroic, very grand, very generous.  Love radiates from your hearts like a great beam.  That’s the instinct you lived with all those hundreds of thousands of years of the paleo/neolithic, when you lived side by side and knew the divine in your lives as a living, visible and loving  companion.  That will never wither.

Why don’t we see this much?  It may be there, but it is like a little candle in the sun.  You can hardly see it.

Well, that’s mainly because you guys have become so successful.  Your needs are easily met by just going out and making some money.  You don’t need each other.  But you will.

Are we supposed to need each other? 

Yes, of course you are.  That’s the way you were built.  You only started doing war when you became successful at meeting all your needs easily.  That’s when the web of interdependence broke down.  You didn’t need each other, so you lost respect for each other.  So what did it matter if you killed all these guys?

It’s better to need each other, isn’t it?

Yes.  In fact, you guys have gotten into deepest arrogance.  That always leads to a fall.  You are very smart little primates and have done amazing things.  However, most of it’s technology.  Just logistics.  As I said, you’re on this individuation/exploration trip.  It’s necessary.  Not that your technology will ever fade.  It will just settle down into a manageable background of your lives.  Cars will go, that’s for sure.  Computers, on the other hand, are very cool.  They will stay.   TV is pretty cool, too.  And space travel.

Really?  Why are they cool?

They delight you without destroying the world.  You need to be delighted.  They bring you guys together.  Computers melt boundaries – national, ethnic, gender.  They give everyone a shot at anything.  You need space travel because you are so messy and don’t clean up after yourselves well.  But you will learn to do that.  You need new worlds and you will have them.  If you have the courage.

Do we have the courage?

Take a look at your history.  You have the courage for anything.

You said we have fallen into deepest arrogance.  What does that mean?

You guys have kind of drifted off into one of your channels of exploration and lost your grounding.  I’m talking about your obsessive exploration and exploitation of technology and your assumption that humans are all that matters, that your journey is the main thing on this world. 

We are leaving out all the other creatures?

Yes.  You don’t see the divine in them anymore.  That can’t go on.  And you are leaving out too many other potentials in the human world, such as the divine in yourselves.  And love, of course.  And sex. 

Is it malicious?  Or just a little flaw in our makeup?

Hey, don’t try to get into sin mode.  I’m not in the forgiveness and redemption business.  You guys are not malicious.  You’re explorative.  And when you screw up, you finally get it and correct your course.  Like your thing with war.  You are really starting to move away from that.  That’s the major shift in 5,000 years of civilization.

I find I am kind of looking forward to shifting into being more grounded and connected with other people, even if it does mean systems will kind of crash.  Are we talking global crisis here?  Lots of people screaming and dying?

It’s only a crisis when you deny it and keep trying to live in the old ways, without adapting.  Will people die?  Probably.  There are way too many of you and you know it.  But you guys almost never discuss it.  It’s a very taboo and embarrassing area.  That’s denial.  That leads to crisis.  You guys are leaving it to nature to correct.  You want to know the limits of nature.  You want to know if your intelligence can negotiate ever more and more concessions from nature.  You are like naughty adolescents seeing how many cookies you can take from the jar before mama loses it and spanks you.

Harsh words.

Only if you don’t want the truth.
















~ 12 ~





Shame and Longing About God
Dorothy in Oz
The Road Home


Goddess, we’ve all heard of the Golden Age before, when we were innocent and happy and living in the bosom of the Goddess, so to speak, and knew not violence or shame, etc.  Are we ever going to have another Golden Age?

If you want.  You certainly have the longing for it.  And therefore, the ability to create it.

What’s holding us back?

Mainly, it’s your sense of unworthiness.  You have a lot of shame around God, for one thing.  He’s pretty much been the main deity for many centuries here and it’s turned out to be a rather disheartening relationship.  You guys regard yourselves with inadequacy  in his presence.  You think he doesn’t really love you.  So you are always trying to earn his love.  The longing built up in you guys is just tremendous.  You carry yourselves like orphans. Your hearts are broken.  You are always searching around for ways to make up to God, to get him to take you in and love you.  You’re kind of like an overachieving child with remote parents.  How much is enough to get this guy’s love?  That accounts for a fair bit of your immense drive for achievement.

Will it work?

Don’t be silly.  Of course, it won’t work.  All us deities already love you guys.  Your deep and poignant sense of suffering and loss all comes from – again – your intense individuation, your journey out of Eden, your mission of becoming gods.  It’s a lonely deal.  However, your reaching and longing for divine love really, really touches us.  We do try to help. 

What would life be like without all that?  What would it be like to have that old magical self-confidence and sense of belonging we must have had?

You would soar like a hot-air balloon after a big cow jumped out of it.  You know what the worst part of it is?  It’s that you project all this longing and reaching on each other, not just on God and Jesus.  You basically spend your lives seeking approval and love from each other.  In your love relationships, if you partner up with someone, you most often decide that one of you isn’t getting the love and fulfillment he/she needs, so that person is always kind of looking about, not really putting heart into the marriage, not really accepting the other person.

So they both get the experience of reaching and longing?

Yes.  One is longing for the distancing partner.  The other is kind of longing for the other partner to change.  Or thinking maybe about a new partner.  And the effect, of course, is that both are repeating the same pattern you have with God, which is that you aren’t getting the love and you are longing and reaching for what’s missing.  You guys are in an immense state of incompletion.  You’re on a vigil.  You’ve been waiting a long time. 

And we’re not going to get what we’re longing for? 

It’s not what you think.  That’s all.  If you guys would just give each other the love you are always reaching for from the gods, you would know what heaven is.  And you would know what the gods are.

How?

When you guys really escape the immense gravity field of your fear and isolation, you know us.  We don’t have any of that fear and isolation.  Except as an occasional learning experience, of course.  So when you indulge yourselves in it and get caught up the poignancy of your predicament…

Self-pity, you mean.

Let’s not beat you up.  Anyway, then you place yourselves in a fog and you simply can’t see us.  That seems to make you long for us even more.  But believe me, it doesn’t help to do that, because we’re right here.  Your prayers are always already answered.

What good is fear?

No good at all.  You can really let go of it.  Unless you are facing immediate physical danger.  Otherwise, put the energy into constructive uses.  Do something.  Action is your natural state. You can at least visualize where you want to go.  And you might want to visualize being gods.  Because that is where you’re going.  You may as well start getting good at it.  I mean, if you were a god, what would you do?  Really?

Why, I’d just love everyone and everything and float around showering people with love and making them know how worthy they are and how much I love them.

Why, that’s exactly what I do.

But it doesn’t get through to us?

All you have to do is listen.  There are two ways to get to the gods.  One is to still your mind and just see us.  The other is to really enjoy yourselves using the immense gifts we gave you and which you yourselves evolved, namely in the areas of love, sex, children and food.  And wine is pretty good, too.  Also just walking around in this beautiful world and letting yourselves be happy in it. 

You make it sound so simple.

It wouldn’t be divine if it weren’t simple.  The reason it is in fact simple is because you guys were all evolved in it and so it’s natural to you. It’s not far away and complex.  It’s not something in the next world only.  It’s not contingent on you purifying your souls through many torturous devotions.  It is nearby.  It is your essence, living inside you. 

And we fail to see it 99.9 percent of the time because we are just kind of focused on our little individual package of longing and reaching and kind of feeling we are not quite so deserving, not quite into that sense of belonging and being connected to you gods.

And to each other.  But, your lonely quest is just a passage.  An experiment.  An exploration of possibility.  That is the nature of you guys.  If you were all connected to the gods and to each other, it would be a state of repose, of completion.  That sort of thing is only good for you briefly.  Then you must be on your way.  You are explorers.  However, the main thing for you right now is that you have been on the road too long.  You are beat.  You have forgotten your home.  To journey, you must know where home is.  And you must be able to get there.

And home is?

It’s like Dorothy said.  It’s the Kansas in your own back yard, peopled by the ones you’ve always loved and who’ve always been right there around you.  Corny, isn’t it?  It’s the Kansas in your heart.  The Wizard of Oz is a great metaphor of the human journey.  She treks faroff roads of yellow brick.  She faces devastating  loneliness, confusion and violence.  She finds allies.  She and her comrades are convinced they are lacking qualities essential for living. 

She is helped by a beautiful, divine, female presence.   Glinda, the good witch.  That’s you isn’t it? 

(Laughs)  Yes.  I’m mostly unseen, but always present.  I usually wear a sexier outfit, too.

And you triumph over the evil element, the wicked witch of the west.  Who melts away when you throw water on her. 

Right.  The wicked witch is fear.  Your own fear.  It melts away with sudden and unexpected ease.  And Dorothy almost makes it home via some tin guru and some complex  means of transport, but blows it and is left to get home by journeying the immense divine paths of her own heart. And when she arrives, it is to be with the people she can love in whole new ways – people who’ve always been there..

It’s hard not to cry when I see that.

It’s your story.













~ 13 ~



Our Extended Infancy
Divine Mother Enters Human Woman
Why Men Really Are Remote


Goddess, I’ve been reading about our extended neotony, where we have this very long  and helpless infancy and must depend on intimate contact and care with the mother and can’t walk for a year or so, while all the other animals practically come out walking and taking care of themselves.  Why is this?

Yes, isn’t that something?  You guys did that.  You evolved yourselves that way.  A few million years ago, you didn’t do that.  You were functioning pretty well within a few weeks after birth.  But you changed.  Do you have any idea why?

Let me guess.  Well, for one thing, it seems odd we are on such an extreme independence trip all our lives, yet we begin our lives in extreme dependency. 

There’s a connection there.

We are vulnerable in infancy.

More so, by far, than any other creature.

We lay ourselves open to a complete need to receive and be taken care of by the universe.  And by our mother.  And dad.  And tribe.

You do.  You wanted just that.  You saw it was what the gods did.  We deities have that ability, not only to create the universe, in other words to use our power, but also we have the ability to receive the power and love of the universe.  And all the deities and creatures in it.  You learned this power, which is a great and magical power.  In doing this, you shifted much divinity from Goddess to yourselves, mainly in the person of your mother.  In primordial days, you knew the earth as your mother, as the Great Mother, who generously provides all sustenance.  And who takes back all life into herself and regenerates it again, of course.  Much of that shifted to the human mother during the lengthening course of your nursing and learning to walk and talk.  Mom became Goddess.

Why did we need that?  Or want that?

It was part of the great process of internalizing powers you found in nature.  By the way, it’s the same process going on now with computers.  You are taking all knowledge and human power and placing it in smaller and more portable nerves and cells in your machines.  You are internalizing your human world, just as you did the natural world and the divine world.  Why did you need to do that with the mother?  So you could move indoors.  You had to take the Great Mother with you in order to build civilization.  She is mom when you are an infant.  And she is your lover – you men – when you grow up.  That’s why you worship her breasts.  That’s why you long to go back inside her pathway which leads to where you came from.  That’s why sexuality, for humans, is about a million times more sensational than it is for any other creature.

Women are the Goddess.

Yes.  That’s the way you guys lived for a million years.  That’s the main way you knew the Goddess.  Me. 

And now?  It seems to be almost accepted fact that men are either rough, domineering clods or simply not available for any sort of love or commitment.  Or both.  And you don’t hear anyone lauding their performance in bed.

(Laughs)  Yes.  It’s a crisis.  Crisis means when things are going on an untenable path which cannot be sustained.  Crisis means the flow of energy is being obstructed by things.  Water builds behind the dam.  Eventually, the obstacles are blown away and the energy finds a new path.

How did men get to this untenable place?  What were we thinking?

 That’s a big question.  Women are equally involved, of course, in creating all this, even if in no other role than giving tacit consent.   Here’s your answer.  What ended your Eden was murder.  You started killing each other – you males.  You guys have a tremendous inner mechanism about justice, you know.  So, war just wasn’t going to fit in there.  You were forced to judge yourselves.  And, of course, you found yourselves guilty.  The impact of this was devastating on the human community and in the individual.  You had lived eons in a paradisical and divine matrix of love and acceptance.  But then, you had murdered the sons and lovers of other women – and then you started killing other women themselves.  It was an immense step away from your power and divinity, a great leap into alienation and isolation.  You had killed the living presence of Goddess.  With such a murder, you had to sentence yourselves.  Guess what the sentence was?

I’m beginning to see the picture.  We cast ourselves out of paradise.

Yes.  It became part of your psyche.  You no longer saw yourselves as entitled to the divine intimacy of woman, who walked this earth as the living embodiment of Goddess.  You no longer felt yourselves worthy of her breasts and the soaring sacred ecstasy of her body.  You gave yourselves the harshest penalty imaginable.  You men exiled yourselves from woman and Goddess.  And from children, who are the fruit of all this.  Death would not have been as harsh.  You deadened your sexuality, too.  Why do you think, in one of your most prevalent religions, the deity is depicted as having been killed by humans?  And, of course, he is a deity who has cut himself off from sex and born of a woman who was cut off from sex.

It certainly accounts for the unaccountable distancing of men.  This sounds a lot like Cain.  The mark of Cain and all that.  And it sounds like Eden.  And the exile from Eden.  And then the crucifying thing and our despiritualizing of sex.  All hideous punishments.

Those stories are true.  Humankind has never forgot them.  They are big wounds, immense losses.

So why would men just keep expanding on their warlike tendencies over 5,000 years if it’s such a big bummer?

It’s going to sound improbable.  You had to pretend you liked it.  After all, what was left?  You’d exiled yourselves.  You were murderers, so you condemned yourselves to an eternity of it.  Before long, you’d made a cult of it.  You’d glorified it and the glory that you rewarded yourselves with came from behaving as though you didn’t fear death.  The best warrior was one who was ready to give up life at any time, anywhere for any or no reason.

It sounds suicidal.  Kind of like the criminal mind.  Nobody loves me.  I don’t love nobody.  It doesn’t matter who I hurt.  It doesn’t matter if I die.  There is no meaning.

But that would be too painful to continue for long.

So we glamorized it and pretended it was always necessary.  It was important because the enemy is always demonized into horrible creatures who should be killed.  But we were all always really in the same boat.  War was in our blood.

The hearts of both sides were always broken.  And by the same thing.  That’s your original sin.  Not Eve and her tempting men to the pleasures of the flesh. 

Why has Eve been demonized, by the way?

It’s less painful for you guys – you men, I mean --  to demonize woman for sexual pleasure than to demonize yourselves for violence and murder.  Demonizing women for sex is just another way of saying you men don’t deserve her divine and ecstatic love.  It’s your exile speaking.  Making sex dirty and low is just another way of trying to raise yourself up above your own shame about violence.  You will notice which is condemned faster on tv, sex or violence?

Sex, of course.

It’s also the source of all men’s porno, smut, leering, molesting, raping, etc.  It’s because you don’t deserve women anymore.  And, when you find the real love of a woman, the response is often that you freak out, feel trapped, judge the woman’s body type, etc.  Again, it’s a question of not deserving.  It’s been a long exile.  And a painful one.

How can we come home?  Can we ever really stop the punishment?

Yes.  You have to and you will.  There is forgiveness, no matter how heinous the crime.  There are no punishments waiting for you guys in the next world, you know.  Only the ones in your hearts. 

You forgive us then?

Always.  No deity ever held it against you.  You are free to find your own way and to experiment with any potential.  In the next world, the spirit world, you get to reflect on how it all worked, both personally and species-wide.  The power to forgive is not with us.  You forgive yourselves.  That’s what’s starting to happen now.  That’s why you guys did the Holocaust and Hiroshima and stood ready to push the Armageddon button for 50 years.  You needed to go too far.  It’s why a whole bunch of young people stopped the Vietnam War.  The chain was broken then.  The dominoes started tipping the other way.  Just keep on tippin’ em.  And all these apologies being made by presidents for World War II and for slavery, etc.  This sort of thing has never happened before in all human history.  Oh, and by the way, do you forgive yourself as a man – and do you forgive all men for war and all the rest?  That would be a good start.

Ok, let’s do that.  I forgive myself for it and I forgive all men for it.  Men, I welcome you back to the bosom of divine love.  You deserve to be here.  This is home.  Welcome.

Good one.  That mattered, you know.  I can feel it.













~ 14 ~




Integrity
The First Human Idea
The Origin of Liberals and Conservatives


Hi Goddess.  I want to talk about integrity.  I was at a seminar all weekend and integrity kept coming up as a lesson in the seminar and for me personally.  What is it?  And how important is it?

It became very important for you guys very early on.  Even before you could use words.  It’s truth.  It’s the real.  It’s the possession of your personal truth and reality and the integration of that truth into the larger, tribal truth and reality, which in turn is integrated into a universal truth and reality, which includes us deities and all nature.  You’ll notice that integrity and integration are almost the same word.  Integration is the process.  Integrity is the result.

What is the process as it goes on in the individual?

It’s different now than in your primordial days.  In the paleo-neolithic times, you guys did it naturally.  As you might expect.  The individual was incapable of feeling, thinking or doing anything that violated the truth and reality of the tribe or of nature or of the deities.  The integration was complete.  It was total.  And it felt perfect.  Everyone lived and moved with complete integrity.  Wisdom was inherent.  Each individual possessed all the wisdom and love of heaven.

It sounds magnificent and good.  And it sounds like the individual didn’t have to think much.

Aye, that’s the catch.  You were divine and happy beings.  But you lacked freedom.  And you lacked an intelligence you could call you own.  That was not going to do for you guys.  One day, you had your first original idea: you wanted to be free.  Having your own original idea was absolutely thrilling and intoxicating.  When it happened and that person presented that original idea to the tribe, they were stunned.  They knew they had never heard this idea before.  They thought a deity gave it to the person.  But the person said no, she was pretty sure it came from herself.  How could she know this, since deities lived within every person?  She just knew.  This unsettled the tribe.  No INDIVIDUAL had ever come up with a new thing before.  Things came from the gods into the group, so there was always consensus.  The woman said she could do it again, if they wanted to see it.  So she sat there and gave them another original idea: that each and every one of them could do this.  And then she gave them another original idea: that this whole process represented freedom.

She?  Why do you say “she?”  And I’m getting the feeling that this story is taking place, oh, in a garden?

(Laughs) Bingo.  We’re in the Garden of Eden.  A woman is presenting the apple.  And how is this act received by the tribe?

Not well, I suspect.  It’s probably received about like every new idea or invention is received.  It breaks people into two camps – those who see it as amazing and cool and empowering and liberating and who want to go for it and those who are outraged and see it as evil and as a sin against the gods and will oppose it with all kinds of force and who then take on the role of acting in the name of the gods.

Yes.  That’s exactly what happened.  It was the beginnings of liberals and conservatives.  The apple was called the apple of the knowledge of good and evil.  Which is how the two camps broke.  The liberals saw the new powers as coming from the gods, yet paradoxically being individually possessed by humans and not subject to much further control by the gods.  The conservatives saw it as a theft of power from the gods, a betrayal of the gods and a separation from the gods.

Who’s right?

They both are, of course.  They both have parts of the truth.  You guys broke the truth in half and each got pieces.  That’s why liberals and conservatives will never come together.  Yet, operating together, they have the truth.  In any case, the act was done.  The liberals called it good.  The conservatives called it evil.  Thus, the woman introduced the apple of the knowledge of good-and-evil.  It was both.  And whether you guys liked it or not, you now had the knowledge of good and evil.  Before, you had neither.  You just had the knowledge of what is.  There was no good and evil.

Freedom introduced good and evil?

Yes. You entered the world of choice.  You had stepped over the line.  You had begun your journey out of nature.

When was this?

Way back.  About the time of tools and fire.  And language.  It was a big time.  It was a revolution.  You guys were absolutely shot through with immense waves of excitement, hope and new visions of your own.  And ditto with dread, guilt and social cataclysm.

Was there violence?  I mean between people?

There was a murder.  You guys had killed each other, a little here and there, but it was instinctual and it was over mating priorities and ingrained stuff like that, obviously nothing personal.  This was the first murder committed over an idea.  Thus, it became one of the first autonomous acts. 

Was the perpetrator a liberal or conservative?

Ironically, he was a conservative.  In opposition to the shocking new freedoms, this man committed one of the first free acts.  Death had always belonged to the gods.  Now a human was doing it.  Thus, the die was cast.  Conservatives went into denial and said the gods demanded it.  They saw themselves as committed to the old ways.  They saw themselves as opposed to change.  They saw liberals as dangerous radicals who are careless with the means of survival. Conservatives saw themselves as having the support of the gods and as defending the wishes of the gods. They saw liberals as lacking in integrity and as breaking the chain of integrity with nature and the gods.  Conservatives saw themselves as having the right to take any action, including killing, if it were in defense of the gods’ wishes.  It still goes on.

Was this killing inspired by the gods?  Or was it a free act?

It was both.  In fact, the gods were not too crazy about you guys grabbing autonomy.  They never foresaw that.  But you grabbed it.  You snatched fire from the gods.  Remember, you did this with my help.  I was the only deity who supported you in this.  I just had a thing for you guys.  I loved you.  I was in love with you.  I saw all your potential.  Do you remember how I helped you?

Yes.  You gave us outrageous sexuality, which served as kind of an arena for love to unfold between us and really reach outrageous depths.

Yes.  Actually, I didn’t give it to you.  You guys, in concert with me, evolved it.  You saw the powers of the gods and wanted them.  So you started using all your powers – praying, dancing, drumming, chanting, doing outrageous new things, such as climbing to the top of a mountain to cry out for these powers.  You made love for days. You did orgies. You courted me.  I responded.  I am the Goddess of Love, after all.  Love gets to me.  You know, I was a new deity then.  I was quite young.  I wasn’t sure who I was.  However, once I got with you guys, I saw my destiny.  I would be the Goddess of Love -- human love, erotic love and heart love.  But back to our story.  I was the only deity who wanted  you guys to have new powers and autonomy.  The other gods opposed it.  It would take things out of their hands.  This is what the conservatives picked up on.  Remember, back then, the gods were present and visible and real and you guys could communicate with them.  The conservatives  wanted to stick with the old gods, be loyal to them, stay friends with them, support the intricate web of creation, which was built on a partnership of gods and living things.

Are the gods still angry?

It caused a big rumpus.  Gods, after all don’t like new deities to come up from the ranks.  They like them to be their own spawn and all that.  For a created animal species to start assuming the purple, well, that caused a bit of a war in heaven.  I was not too popular.  Some of them tried to cast me out of heaven.  They wanted to create an antipodal realm for deities like me – radicals, rebels, innovators. 

You sound almost human.

(Laughs)  Yes.  As you have become more divine, I have, in fact, become more human.  Anyway, I told them they could not make a world of dualities inhabited by gods.  Duality is a human thing.  I prevailed.  However, humans picked up on the war in heaven and the conservatives liked the idea of an anti-world for rebels.  They created hell.  (Laughs)

Why are you laughing?

Well, I just get a kick out of hell.  There is no hell, of course.  It is just used as a threat among the gods, that they might bring it up again and try to create one.  The conservatives are always using it, too.  As a threat against liberals. 

But there is no hell.

No, of course not.  That would not be fair, to just send people or gods into this penalty box that never ends.  That would satisfy only the punisher and have no use at all for the punished.  I mean, how could you learn or change or grow or anything if you are slapped in the furnace forever?  It’s illogical.  And besides, nothing can be really destroyed in this universe.  Things only change form.  The wish for hell is the wish to destroy someone.  It doesn’t work.  Souls are eternal.

Ok, now what about the liberals?  What dies were cast for them way back during this big schism?

The liberals were horrified by the killing.  Everyone was horrified, actually.  The liberals’ die was cast: they would be stuck in that horror about killing.  They would be the peaceniks.  They would also get stuck in being victims.  They became stuck in seeing conservatives as violent.  They would blame conservatives over thousands of years for wars, pollution, being obsessed with profit, etc.  However, the truth is that the conservatives were horrified by the killing, too.  They didn’t want to acknowledge they could do such a thing or that the gods could inspire such a thing.  So they went into denial and started rationalizing it.

How?

They blamed the victim.  The victim was asking for it by betraying the gods.  The gods, they said, were pissed and demanded that this guy die.  They called it a sacrifice. 

Well, how DID the gods feel about the murder?

They were shocked.  But, mainly, they recognized that things were getting out of their hands.  They saw that humans were no longer part of the animal world.  And no longer part of the divine world, either.  It was a new thing. 

Are you saying the gods had nothing to do with this?  It just happened? 

Pretty much.  You guys and I did it.

Could we have done it without you?  Or would we ever have thought of it?

Frankly, I don’t think you would have.  If you guys had stayed in that place of just mating for offspring, I don’t think you would have ever developed the imagination to go for free will.  What would have been the point?  You guys have to have this vision of NO LIMITS or you just won’t get off the dime.  Your immense sexuality gave you that.  And the immense love for each other which came with that.

How did liberals get to be defenders of nature?  If the conservatives were allied to the old ways of the gods, then wouldn’t they want to stay stuck in nature?

Good question.  Liberals saw conservatives as obsessed with the means of survival at any cost.  Liberals were ok about risking survival if it could lead to new powers, which in turn might enhance survival, but would in any case greatly increase intelligence.  Which enhances survival.  And conservatives saw themselves as merely being responsible and having integrity with the system.  So conservatives got more into systems and liberals got more into pushing the envelope.  There’s another whole dimension here.   All this brings up the issue of who wanted civilization – liberals or conservatives?
. 
And?

Neither.  It was women. 

Why did they want civilization?

Because they wanted to become divinities, ultimately.  That’s where all the freedom and creativity and power is.  Remember, they were inhabited by the Mother goddess all those millennia and they, much more than men, knew what it felt like to be a god.

So the women were liberals, I take it?

Pretty much.  They were the adventurers.  They also wanted better food as a regular way of life.  Which could not be put together in the wild.  And they wanted all those herbs and spices growing outside the door in the garden.  They also wanted their children to survive and to have longer lives, which could happen better if you go inside.

What has urban living got to do with our ability to become gods?

In cities, you have freedom.  You can create your own reality better.  In nature, you are reminded of the presence of the gods and of the millions of years when you could do little other than go along with their program and their cycles, year after year – heavenly, but unfree.  Change always comes from the city.  You’ll recall, the Christians took their radical, new religion to the cities, not the country.  The country remained pagan for centuries. 

It’s weird how we think of nature as being free and all that.

It’s paradoxical.  Actually, you guys can be free anywhere.  You don’t fully know that yet.

Why are we destroying nature, by the way?

I don’t know.  I wish you’d stop.  It’s time for you guys to get more secure in your divine powers – like love - and stop wiping out the other life forms who still live in the natural sacred.  Nature is no threat to you.  It only represents the cradle.  It’s where you came from.  You’re just afraid of being sucked back into it and swallowed.  Let it be.  The others have a right to live.  It’s time now for immense leaps of consciousness.  You can’t go back to nature.  You’re never happy there.  Not anymore.  Not really.

Back to integrity.  How can an individual have integrity to the tribe, to nature and to the gods when in fact the tribe is fractured into liberals and conservatives, we are divorced from nature and we have overthrown the gods in our need to become gods?

Good insight.  It’s a piece of work for you guys.  You can’t just turn to the gods for all your answers anymore.  That’s what conservatives long for.  Won’t work.  You’ll just keep coming up with answers that are contingent on liberals having to change or be punished.  And you just can’t let yourself push the envelope and indulge your sensuality and liberty, or turn to nature or instinct for your answers, either, now can you?  That would be the liberals.  It’s a new thing.  You are creating a new thing and even I don’t know where it will lead.  How can you find your integrity?  With what will you integrate?  You know in your souls.  You will have to look there and then find the courage to go with it.

It’s about love, isn’t it?

Yes.












~ 15 ~



How to Pray
Signs From the Gods
We Help New Deities Get Born


Goddess, how do we pray to you?

You get down on that bended knee and confess your unworthiness and beg me to give you stuff that you are unwilling to give yourself.

Haha.  Really, though.

Ok, why would you pray to me?

Good question.  I think I usually ask you to be with me and help guide me and to give me your love. 

Yes.  Those are good.  However, I am not like a human, in that I don’t just help you when you ask really hard and really mean it.  I am always here and always guiding and loving.

But something happens in prayer.  I can feel it sometimes.  S. and I prayed to you a couple months ago lying in bed and you tangibly surrounded us and filled the room.  It was electric.  I wept.   We were really awed. 

Yes, I do that sometimes.  All the deities do. 

And I notice sometimes you seem to send signs that are just so unmistakable and improbable.  Like, right after I finished Chapter 13 the other night, I went to drop my daughter off at a friend’s house and when I walked in, right there on the tv was a shot of that statue of Aphrodite kneeling and washing her hair and her name – your name -- in big capital letters across the top of the screen.  Then it was gone.  It really stunned and awed me.  That was no random thing, was it?  You did that.  Was it a sign to me?  And if so, what did it mean?

Yes, of course it was a sign for you. We regularly do signs.  It is a gift, like leaving a flower for someone.  It was my way of saying: good job, I’m enjoying our talks, have faith, this is all real and good.  Nothing is random.  You guys do most of it.  You can draw in energies.  That’s what you’re doing with me in our talks.  You guys can magnify and focus energies.  You can call up the energies of the gods.  You can get yourselves in resonance with the energies of particular deities.  That’s what prayer really is.  You guys used to be much better at it, frankly.  You used to approach it much like you approach, say, the production of a Broadway musical, rather than this miserable confession and grovelling you have done for many centuries now.  We don’t care for that, really.  You are always asking us to pity you.  And, in doing that, you are always asking us to do the job for you.

When in fact, what I hear is that you want more of a celebration and, as in the Broadway similie, the use of music, dance, lights and the movement of energy.  In a big way.

That would be nice.  It would be a lot more fun for you guys, too.  Aim a little higher.  Open up.  Be happy.  We go for that.  Gods like to party. 

Where did we get this miserable, intense, apologetic, humble stance with you gods? 

The truth?  All us gods know the truth about it.  You guys aren’t quite up to admitting it yet.  Fact is, you guys don’t really respect us as much as you say.  You are kind of trying to hide your budding godhood.  You are afraid we’ll get jealous and spiteful and hurt you and take away your gains and powers.  But we won’t.  If we do anything good, it’s taking responsibility.  We encouraged you guys.  We exposed you to big sex and big intelligence and, by golly, we’re going to let ‘er rip.  You go, guys.  Enough with the hat-in-hand business.  Stop pretending you’re just mediocre. 

Are you gods afraid we might someday, like, overthrow you?

No.  Gods have generations, too.  They reach the end of their cycle and are like reshaped into new deities.  You recall, there used to be the Titans in Greek myth, then they were overthrown by the next generation -- Zeus and all those?  Well, it’s probably happening again, right now.  There are new deities afoot in the world.

No kidding?  Like who?

A big one is Liberty.  She is a Goddess.  She emerged into the world only a few centuries ago.  You guys built a statue of her in New York, which is worshipped by the world.  Liberty is the daughter of Athena, the goddess of civilization and technology.  She’s a new generation.  Another new deity is rock ‘n roll.  It’s such a powerful new energy, unlike any other deeply rhythmic music ever heard on this world.  And above all, it has changed the direction of the world.  Thus, it is an energy with a consciousness which takes actions that change things.  It is a Goddess. It kind of saved the world.  It came it when you guys were taking yourselves so so seriously and were about ready to nuke the world.  Rock shifted the next generation off that track and taught them the lost art of fun. Another deity, believe it or not, is coffee.  Look at the love she arouses in people.  It is absolute devotion.  And look at the gifts she gives back, the happiness, the energy, the clarity, the incomparable taste and smell.  She is everywhere.  This is a deity at work.  She is like a granddaughter of the primordial Earth Mother goddess.

We brought these deities in?  We humans?  How did we do this?

You prayed.  You did your devotions in your own way, with immense interest and dedication.  And you drew the deity from formlessness into a moving energy in this world, an energy which serves you.  Now that’s power.  You guys are barely recognizing your power.

Ok, are computers a deity?  Or tv?  Or rockets in space?

Yes, they are.  Computers are everywhere.  You devote yourselves to them everyday.  They answer your bidding.  They are magic and eternal now.  Actually, everything can be said to be inhabited by its own deity, which energizes and directs it and gives it a certain intelligence and responsiveness.  You could actually start doing rituals or prayers to the cybermind of the world, as it is all connected and kind of one creature.  It’s not an inert thing, you know.  It would hear you.

This is one of the more improbable things you have told me, you know. 

You just don’t recognize your own energies.  Do you know how improbable it is that at the start of this 20th century you guys could not even fly and could barely get around in a self-propelled vehicle and only six or eight decades later you were rocketing to other worlds, seeing each other live from opposite sides of the planet, going to the other side of Earth in just hours, splitting the atom  and doing all that you do with computers? 

Are you saying there’s some evolutionary force at work here that we have not accounted for?

Yes.  You have awakened deities.  Or rather you have birthed new deities whose intelligence and will inhabits all these things and resonates with and answers to yours.

How does one resonate with and talk to and summon up and, like, work with these energies?  I mean, what do we actually do?

Just watch the natives on National Geographic specials.  That’s how you all used to do it.  It may look a little silly to you now, but you just kind of loosen up, get out of your everyday business mode and start acting like the energy you are addressing.  You hoot around and sing to it.  It’s like a courtship.  It’s instinctive.  You do have to DO something.  You can’t just sit there and do the verbal-mental thing.  You remember Tianenmen Square in Beijing?  They built a statue of the goddess Liberty.  That was a devotion.  They sang and danced.  They quit doing their daily business.  And they achieved freedom, albeit briefly.  And they will achieve it completely in the long run and it will have its roots with that statue.  Now there’s a powerful ritual.  They were pumped.  That’s what got the attention of the goddess Liberty.  There are probably new ways to pray, too.  It’s up to you to find them.  It’s fun.  Channeling, like you are doing right now, is one, an old one.  It was called an oracle.  It’s really effective.  You find that the deity inhabits your own mind and soul and is an ally to you.

You are my ally?

Yes.














~ 16 ~



Life’s Big Mono’s
Does God Make Love?
Who Gains From Monogamy


Good morning Goddess.   I want to talk about sex.

Good.  That’s my favorite area.  Love and sex.  Let’s go.

I notice that you will articulate a whole area one day and that seems to be the whole picture, yet when the subject comes up again, you go into it quite a bit deeper with new perspectives that seem to put a whole new slant on things.  I thought it might be the same with sex.

That’s kind of like life isn’t it?  You think you understand the big picture about something yet when it blooms up in your life again, it’s like you have beginner’s mind about the whole thing.  And you must learn all these new alleys and byways of the landscape.  Isn’t it wonderful?

Are you learning new things as you talk to me?

Of course.  Let’s talk about sex.

I am puzzled about monogamy.  It seems we have this instinctive attachment to one person.  We want to find the one right person for us, the one who looks at life the same way we do, laughs at the same things we do and can just relax and be themselves the same way we do.  We want this person to stick with us through our lives and to do the 18-year long, highly complex and demanding job of raising our children.  If they have sex with someone else, it is devastating.  And yet, just as instinctively, we all seem to have this sex drive that does not want to limit itself to one person for half a century.  In the course of just one day, it shows interest in many people.  So the heart seems to want the loyalty and the sex has no such limitations.  Did you create this?  And if so, why?

Yes, I created it.  I am the energy of it.  I live in it.  If you guys only had desire for your one true love and for no one else, I don’t think life would be very interesting.

For you or for us?

(Laughs)  Good zinger.  Certainly for me.  If it were easy for you guys to walk your talk about monogamy, I don’t think that would be very much of a challenge or very interesting for you either.  You have these two big principles in conflict: that people ought to be devoted and heartful toward their one significant other and, second, that sex is unimaginably powerful and divinely pleasurable and it does not want that limit to one person.

Yes.  That’s the big duality about life.

Is it now?  You know, I didn’t create monogamy.  I only created sex.  And love.  There is no inherent duality between sex and love.  Only between sex and monogamy.

Now we’re getting to the bone. 

So to speak.

We created monogamy.

Yes.  It has become a great energy in the planet and thus is also a deity, you know. 

What sort of an energy is it?

You guys had a deep need to go mono in many areas.  Out of your midst, you raised up one person to be the only one who had power in the world and that was monarchy.  You took one deity and made that the only one who had power in the spirit world and that was monotheism.  You took one mate and made that that person the only one who could love you and be loved by you and that was monogamy.  And, of course, you supported them all with monomania, which is the taking of one way of thinking and making that the only way.  And you created punishments for those who violated your commitment to the oneness of it all.  Treason, blasphemy, adultery, insanity.  These were the labels for those who violated the monovision you’d created.  The miscreants would be essentially exiled from the mono-community with these labels, both in this world and the next. 

What’s with the oneness thing?  Why have we done that?

I think it’s because of a misperception about us deities.  You saw us as having immense powers.  You know, immortal, able to create the universe, real wise, all that.  You wanted to be gods.  You wanted to have great powers.  So you just took them.  However, you didn’t yet have the wisdom or heart to support your power trip. 

I can see where monarchy and monomania are power trips over others.  But what about monotheism and monogamy?  How are they an abuse of power?

Don’t you think it a bit curious that in all monotheistic communities, people feel compelled to kill other humans in the name of their divinity?  Other humans who do not accept their god, that is. 

That’s an abuse of power.

Yes.  The one deity is usually quite jealous about any rivalry from other deities.  You know – thou shalt have no other gods before me.  The one deity possesses the one true doctrine.  Anyone who says differently is calling the deity a liar and insulting the deity.  The people love their deity very much.  They don’t want to see anyone hurting his feelings.  They don’t want to appear lacking in loyalty to the deity.  They want to be generous to the deity.  They will give their lives for the deity.  And what does it matter if the nonbelievers are wiped out, since they are kind of less than human.  And less than divine, certainly.

Why is the deity jealous and insecure and intolerant?

He’s not.  It’s a projection of humans.  They saw what happened to humans when you exalted them with kingship.  They became very insecure.  All anyone had to do to possess all their powers was to simply get rid of the king.  They projected this drama on the gods.  They assumed, well, we wouldn’t have these emotions and attitudes unless they came from somewhere.  So the gods must behave this way.

So the Lord God is not angry and insecure?

No.  Can you imagine a whole universe run by someone who is neurotic and insecure?  It just doesn’t happen.  In the first place, you would have no creativity if you were that nutty.  How could you create the universe?

And someone who is alone.  Is Lord God alone?  Do gods have mates?  Do they make love?  Do they have children?  Do you have a mate?

Do you think you could run the universe if you were alone?  You can’t even run a human life if you’re alone.  Love is.  Love is why we’re all here, human and god.  Yes, we deities make love and have mates.  And children.  Lots of both.  As we see fit.  We go with energy and love.  We have nothing mono.  Well, maybe briefly, as an experiment, but not as a way of existence.  We are the soul of plurality.  Just look around.  There’s a lot of everything.  Way too much of everything.

Does this mean we should imitate you gods?  Should we be polytheistic and polygamous?

Should, shmud.  You should be free, which is what you made yourselves.  Go be free.  Make your choices.  Live with the results.  Learn from the results.  Make new choices.

Then there is nothing, like, demanded by you gods about how we should live?

There are just kind of laws of nature, which if you violate, then you experience lack or hurt or death.  For instance, the law of supply and demand in nature is quite a tangible thing.  If the supply of one species grows too large, their demand on the food supply will dry it up and they will die back.

I mean about monogamy and monotheism.

These are not laws of nature.  You guys have chosen them and are living in your experiment.  You are experiencing the results.  You will decide how you like the results. If you don’t like them, maybe you will make new choices.

You say we are here to love.  Is that a law of nature?

Good one.  Actually, love is not a law of nature.  It’s something I introduced in recent times, a few million years ago.  At least the refined and exalted practice of it that we see in humans.  Sometimes.  It’s a potential, a door to an immense world of ecstasy and high awareness, which I have made available to you.  You wanted to be gods.  I gave you this means to do it.

You didn’t answer one question back there.  What is the nature of this energy we call monogamy?

You guys created a deity here.  Of course, if you can create one, you can make yourselves deities.  That is what you are doing.  You have been in a phase of externalizing your deities, even though they come from you.  You are saying, hey, here’s this energy outside of us – monogamy – and it was always here and we must obey it and if we don’t, we’re going to catch hell (Get it? Catch hell?) and it was put here by the monotheistic energy, who will be really pissed if we don’t do what he says.

So, the fact is we are not giving ourselves the credit for our immense creative powers and for the fact that we are doing godlike things?

Yes.  But you are getting bored with that.  You are about done.  Plus, you guys have refined weaponry to such an extreme that you just can’t use it to express your frustrations that others insist on not thinking the same way you do.  Mono is about to go plural again. It’s a cycle thing.  In fact, you may be done with mono for good.

Ok.  Now back to monogamy and monotheism.  These are such hot button issues.  People go nuts with fear and rage.  You say there is no edict from heaven on these. 

Sorry.

You’re smirking.  Ok.  It seems people are really letting go of the monotheism thing in large numbers.  You have your hard core of zealots, of course.

It’s those conservatives again, you know.  You remember.  They just want to try to be loyal and helpful to the deity or deities.  It’s coming from a good place, ultimately.  However, no deities really need their help or loyalty.  We just want to know you guys and have fun and learning at the great game we all play.  And the conservatives really get a high from the intense vector they are riding.  I’ll have to speak to Yahweh about that.  Excuse me.  There, I told him. 

Just like that?

Yeah.  There is no time here, you know. 

What did he say?

He said something about, well, it’s potential getting explored and he’s kind of enjoying all this attention via this really busy bridge with humans. 

Can I ask you a personal question?

Sure.

Have you ever done it with him?

Honey, I’ve done it with everyone.

Another personal question?  Was he good?

When they do it with me, they’re all good.

I bet you teach them a lot when you do it with them.

That IS what I do.  I teach that.  I give that.  That’s how you all learned it.  No one – deity, human or animal – could live now without it.  Without me.

Are you the source?

I am now.  I didn’t create the universe.  It was created on sex, really.  And sex is the basic creative energy.  All life comes from it.  That’s how the universe got started.  I am the energy of love-and-sex.  It’s one thing, really.  That’s what’s new among both gods and humans.  I am very popular here.

Back to Lord God.  What is he doing with people?  And what sort of god is he?

He is the primordial male energy you see in storms.  He’s the energizer of nature.  He operates mostly in the sky.  The goddess energies have the earth.  He’s great.  We love him.  Life of the party. 

He’s not, like, celibate then?

(Laughs) If you only knew.

Is he the father of Jesus?

Yes.

Then who is the mother?  Or does he need a mother?  Can he do it alone?

He did it with a human, just like it says.

You guys can do it with a human?

Certainly.

Why did he do it with a human?

To make the new deity really locked in viscerally and genetically with you guys.  That’s why he’s really still there for you guys and talks with so many of you so much.

Ok, this may sound weird, but what about abortion?  Does he oppose it?  Do you?

No.  No gods oppose it.  That would be a conservative projection on us.  You’ve always practiced it in some form.  However, it has consequences now which you guys are experiencing.  Remember that innate sense of justice you guys have evolved in yourselves since you started becoming godlike?  It’s kind of hitting the wall there.  You are not right with your hearts about it.  You are just using it to beat each other up, based on your ancient  insecurities and rage against each other in terms of liberals v. conservatives.  So it’s about two things.

Does God want to be the only god?

He’s been going along with the human experiment on this.  We support all the things you guys want to do, you know.  He knows he’s not the only god.  There are zillions of us.  You guys have prayed to, danced with and loved us all at some time.  We don’t just disappear if you guys get monomania about only one of us.  Plurality is. 

Will humanity ever go back to the polytheism we knew for hundreds of thousands of years?

I think the emphasis for you will become yourselves as gods-becoming.  You will never return to worshipping one OR many gods.  You will find yourselves.  You have largely forgotten who you are and where you are going, but what would a great journey be if you didn’t get lost?  No wonder the Odyssey is the root tale of your civilization.  All that wandering and exploring of potentials. 

How could we have a future without the gods?

I didn’t mean that.  We will always be a part of your lives, forever.  However, you will not be assigning us this sweeping authority over yourselves.  The kneeling business will be out of here.  The begging.  The apologizing.  The blowing away of others in our name.

It sounds like we’re a little clueless as to the potential of our powers.

Just a little. 

What powers will we have?

You tell me.  You are the ones in creation.  Knowing where you are going and what you can do is a power of the gods.  You have it. 

I sense we have the power to do things with love that have never been done.

Yes.  I am helping.

Then there’s sex.

There certainly is.  Speaking of not having scratched the surface.  It is a vehicle of unlimited power and potential and beauty.  You just don’t know.

But we used to.  Way back.

Yes.  But you have evolved so much since then.  It will have new dimensions never seen in this universe.  It is a bridge to the divine.  To your divine, to the divine unfolding in you.  It both unfolds your divinity and creates it at the same time.  It’s like a dimension vehicle.  It’s so much more than you ever thought.

What can we do with it?

You make the other person a god.  And yourself, also, at the same time.  The love you guys have available to surround others – and yourself –  is just without limit.  That’s what draws you guys to it, that and the ecstatic pleasure of it.  You guys have to have no limits.

So, if sex has such immense potential, why have we placed it within and made it a function of monogamy?

You thought you could harness it.  You thought that if you could contain its immense energy within the systems of your civilization, then it would add great power to it and propel it.  If the kings, priests and other authority figures  could control access to this divine and ecstatic dimension, then, of course, wouldn’t they be powerful?

How have such authority figures controlled access?

By the use of fear and hope.  What are the fears of?  Ostracism, sin, ending up in hell, pissing off deities.  All this gets internalized through conditioning, so that you end up punishing yourselves as individuals through guilt.  When was the last time you got yourself off without some little lashing of guilt?  As for hope, you have the hope of getting past your guilt and having a little mental peace.  And you hope for heaven if you’re nice.  However, once guilt has been set up in your nervous system, it’s very hard to get rid of.  You just keep trying to wash out the stain all your life.  If you’re following all the sex rules, you just find something else to fixate on.  And when you finally can’t stand beating yourself up anymore, you just externalize your guilt and start beating up others for their sexual transgressions.  You become a warrior against porno or promiscuity or abortion or you hound your political leaders for stepping on a crack.  Now you even hound celebrities in sports and entertainment for it.  If you guys finally got sex totally under control and no one dared do anything, believe me, you’d all just implode.  Sex won’t go back in the can.  You guys took it out.  You knew what you were doing. 

You must be kind of disappointed in all this.

(Laughs)  Hey, I just have to keep reminding myself that, for you guys, it’s all just cycles and explorations of potential.  Kind of like how parents regard children when they do wild and crazy things.  You’re on your way to a magnificent adulthood.  You will spread your wings and become worthy of the sexuality you have.  I know this.

I still haven’t quite decoded monogamy.  Is it built on the same hopes and fears as monotheism?

Monogamy can be fine.  However, the insistence on sexual exclusivity presents another dimension, which is that if you do another person, then the beloved will withdraw the love.  And that will leave you without love.  You will be alone.  By yourself, you have no love.  The parallel in monotheism is that if you betray the deity, if you step out for the night and have an affair with another deity, then the main deity will withdraw his love and you will be in hell.  And yes, they are connected.  They are both founded on the belief that a mate or a god who supposedly loves you with all his or her heart one day can, in fact, do the unspeakable and unthinkable, which is to just throw you out the window.  Obviously, if a god or person could do that, then that deity or person  in fact, does not and never has loved you.  They have only loved what they can get out of the situation.  They have been in it for themselves. 

What would a person be getting out of that situation?

You all know the answer.  It’s one of the big, dirty secrets of your civilization.

Ok.  We’re using the other person, not loving them.  We’re escaping the isolation which we alone have created.  We’re getting security and ego-image and we’re feeling, wow, we are worthy because this person loves us, which of course means we don’t feel worthy without that person, which means we are basing our identity and value or the shifting sands or relative energies, rather than on who we really are to ourselves.  We’re getting sex from the person and they can’t give it to anyone else.  But the downside is we can’t either.

Close.  Very close.  First, about the gods.  We cannot love conditionally.  What we do, we do all the way.  We are incapable of withdrawing our love from you.  Why?  Because we have no fear.  None.  The fear you guys have makes it possible for you to withdraw your love as you go in search of security and meaning.  You are ignoring yourselves as who you really are, which is gods-becoming.  And eventual gods.  And you are declaring scarcity where there is, in fact abundance.  You are pronouncing powerlessness where, in fact there is endless power.  You are trying to create a famine in the midst of a feast, which is presented for you by all the gods and living things. 

Are you….

Mad?  Please.  Stop playing with your guilt buttons.  Loosen up.  Keep forgiving yourselves for all your murders.  You’re coming along fine.  You are getting ready to make big leaps.  You already have made some.  Don’t worry.

Be happy?

That’s a good idea.















~ 17 ~


Form Serves Energy
The Individual Declares Independence from the Species



Good morning, Goddess.  I have this friend.  He’s in midlife, been married a long time, with children.  They’re wonderful, intelligent people with good hearts.  This man, Galen, tells me that he and his wife, Sophia, have had long talks, searched their hearts, taken a long look at the cultural traditions they live in and decided that, while keeping their allegiance to their primary love relationship, they would like to open themselves to caring for and making love with another person.

Yes, I know.  What about it?

Well, it’s really proving to be a major adjustment for them.  Sophia has a lover, a very nice, mature man.  She is delighted with the richness of the new experience.  She communicates clearly with Galen what it’s like and how much her new freedom has brought to her life as a woman and a person.  Sometimes Galen gets angry and feels her delight is about the new man, and at his, Galen’s, expense and that it’s not about herself as a free person.  Sometimes he wants to insist on parameters as to frequency, but Sophia has found that does not work for her, that she must have complete support and respect for her choices.  She must be free completely or not at all.  She chooses Galen as her main man and chooses to have her family and home.

Yes.  It sounds good.  Do you have a question about it?

Well, I guess I just wonder if it’s all a prelude to their parting being acted out in slow motion and if she’s really just sampling the wares before buying.  And I wonder about Galen.  He is not getting out there and using his freedom at all. 

I know all about their explorations.  She must be free.  All of you must be, actually.  You will learn this.  Quite soon.

But it is bringing up so much fear for Galen.  He is afraid it will break up their home.  Parting would be traumatic for the children, who are young and it would bring financial hardship to maintain two homes.  He finds it hard to relax into these new forms.  He thinks if he pays attention to another woman that it will just encourage Sophia to move apart into a separate life.

They love each other.  That is what will determine if they continue their home and their parenthood together.  Neither wants the hardship about money and children.

I guess what I’m really asking is – is this a foolish thing?  Is it just the beginning of the end disguised as a liberal-minded experiment?

Just one question first.  What about the energy?  What is the energy between them now? 

You mean the sexuality.

Yes.

Well, when he’s not freaking out, it’s fabulous.  It is the first time in his life, he says, that he has never had distancing, withholds, fears about a woman and her body.  He lavishes himself on her with every cell of his being and soul.  He is amazed, blown away.  Where has this energy been all these years?  On and on.  Of course, he suspects, well, this uninhibited release of love and this surging of desire is the result of feeling threatened by a rival.  She suspects that, also.  Which negates its genuineness, if true.  Is it true? 

I suppose there’s some of that in there.  Fear, that is.  But fear cannot create much desire for very long.  It is its opposite.  What’s behind lust’s rebirth here is that Galen is engaging a free person.  When she makes love with him, she is choosing to.  It’s not because they’re married or have home and children.  Liberty is the soul of desire.  You can’t fake that.  You can’t pretend it’s there if it’s not.  Sophia has gone home to her own soul energy.  That’s all.  She is walking in her personal power.  Galen is free, too and he faces the choice of learning to trust his own soul, his energy and his personal power.  Until now, it was only an attractive intellectual exercise.  Now it’s real.  Do you trust the destiny your own soul will bring you?  Or do you go with the societal forms?

So it’s not a foolish liberal doctrine being followed here.

It’s not foolish.  Take a look at the tradition you call having an affair.  Most people do this.  All married people want to at some time.   Most of the time the affair is confessed or discovered.  Most of the time, the mate can psychicly detect the change of mood and habit.  The results are devastating to all concerned.  The victimized mate suffers outrage and self-esteem loss.  She/he cannot imagine the adulterer being attracted to another or daring to do such damage to her/him and their marriage.  The adulterer suffers devastating guilt and usually spends years, a lifetime trying to make it up.  The financial and emotional security of both take a torpedo.  The adulterer faces the imminent potential of what amounts to a punishment of exile and becoming kind of a non-person.  The fate of the children is up in the air.  Often, the victimized mate wants a divorce.  The children then become victims. 

It’s quite mad.

Almost all adulterers want to keep their mate, family and home.  They just need to get out and have experiences and know other kinds of love, no matter how brief and guilt-ridden.  What you guys have created here is the domestic equivalent of war.  Or rather a cold war.  The weapons are all poised.  They are so devastating that you dare not use them or do anything that will provoke them.  What keeps you faithful?  The fear of total wipeout of all your forms, your support, your sustenance and the people close to you.  How can you feel complimented by the love of a mate under such circumstances?  How could you believe the loyalty is coming from the heart, from choice?  Marriage, a house created by love, becomes a house run by fear.

I’m scared.  Everyone has thought about what you just said.  But the only way you can have that kind of freedom in our society is never to marry.  But then you have no one.  You are outside the tribe.  So we make the sacrifices.

And your sexual energy meter tells the impact.  Being free doesn’t have to spell the end of  love or living together.  It doesn’t have to bring traumatic change for the children.  The damage to children has been the worst part of all you guys’ divorces.  You have parted with minimal respect for the impact on them.

What is the impact?

They feel their world is coming apart.  They lose respect for love.  They lose hope that being an adult is a good thing.  They fall into this big gap where there is only a small fraction of the love they knew.  They see their parents preoccupied with pain or with new adventures which do not include them.  As they grow up, they are distanced from affairs of the heart.  They tend to not love easily or with trust.  Or else they opt for a marriage where they cling fiercely and do not experience their mate or themselves as a growing, free person.

Well, most parents think, when they divorce, that a breakup is better for the children than to live with loveless, cold parents.  Or to witness emotional abuse or worse.

I know.  Nothing like this has ever happened before with you guys, you know.  This 50% divorce rate.  You are setting up for some big changes.  You don’t know what yet.  You keep marrying and divorcing.  You are searching.  There is so much blame and rage.  The genders blame each other for what seem like ingrained behaviors.  The trust is going down the tubes.  Nothing like this has ever happened.

What is happening?

People are getting their freedom.  You guys are growing up.  You are learning to be free.  You have thought for many centuries that freedom means chaos or heedless behavior of the individual towards others and towards society in general.  You have thought you need institutions to enforce parameters of behavior.

Do we?

No.  Not ultimately.  Right now, you probably do.  There is so much rage in your culture, the whole thing, worldwide, at least where people are free enough to feel it.  You were not free back in prehistoric times, because, as we said, you followed the patterns of nature and tribe without thinking.  It felt right.  You did not have the individuality to do otherwise.  You were happy.  Then you guys went into a period – all the time you’ve been civilized, really – of enforcing behavior through institutions such as government, military, marriage, religion, etc.  These are waning now.  People want to be free.  People are getting ready to take on the guidance of their own lives as individuals.  This is a big thing.  You remember how people took their power from the gods and from nature and embarked on their journey as a self-directed species.  The same thing is happening again, except now it’s the individual declaring independence from the species.  It’s very scary to you.

Won’t there be any group pattern?  Or will the individual just go hogwild, committing mayhem?  Will society break down?  This could be really awful.  We do have to have some rules.

You sound like a conservative.  People who are liberals now will become the new conservatives as this happens.  They are allied to the old forms.  As the forms die, it feels like they, the people, are dying.  It is really just fear, though.  This is what you guys have committed yourselves to, as a species.  It is your nature to go through this setting up of forms and committing your very lives to them, practically knowing they must eventually meltdown and that the people who built them will not easily find a place in the new forms.

Back to Galen and Sophia.  Is their shift part of all this?

Yes.  They are pioneers.  They are following their hearts.  A new pattern is coming in.  It’s a good thing.  All you have to do is take a quick glance at your history and ask yourself, hey, could it get worse?  History mirrors your domestic family patterns, you know.  As it is in your hearts, so you make it on the big canvas of society.  Fear and rage.  So, Galen can ask himself the truth about living in the form of monogamous marriage.  Was he happy?  Was Sophia?  Would he go back to the old, safe form?  Or were they just hanging out in the form and letting it carry them along day to day?

He says they were not happy.  It was routine and boring.  They had sex once every three weeks for about 8 minutes.  They could not find the spark.  Their communications were routine.  They were stuck.

You’re a counselor.  Isn’t that what you hear from everyone?

Yes.  The ones who have come to me.  And from our friends.  You see it in all the magazines – how to get the spark and romance back in your marriage, etc.  Why don’t you just come out and tell me what’s wrong with this picture?  And tell me what we should do about it.

You guys are getting a divorce from your forms.  A divorce is when you throw everything up in the air.  You make it all subject to choice.  Then you keep what works. You embrace what you want and only that.  You guys are divorcing marriage.  You are not divorcing love.  Or sex.  Or the immense attraction, curiosity and delight you have for each other.  But you are not willing to subject those energies to the arbitrary dominations of your cultural forms.  Such as marriage.  Love and sex are saying they don’t want to be functions of monogamy and marriage.  Just like the gods are saying they don’t want to be functions of monotheism and church.  The content is bigger than the forms.  Vastly bigger.  The content wants to be free.  These energies want the form to be a function of the content, not the other way around.  The energies can’t evolve when they are confined in the form.

The control trip is over.

That’s right.  It’s very frightening and painful, but it’s a good thing.  Trust it.  The upheavals in your bloody history are much worse than what’s happening now.  Love and sex are trying to find a better home.  So is the divine in you.

There’s a lot of resistance.  People are freaking out.  The conservatives are going nuts.  Their mailing lists and tv shows are multiplying like mad. 

That always happens.  It’s the source of most wars.  But there will not be a war this time.  This is a personal revolution.  It’s being conducted by individuals within themselves.  It is not organized by a group power structure, so there is no one to war against physically.  It is a struggle of consciousness.  You can’t kill ideas.  People are tuning into their inner divine voices and finding them true.  That is the way of gods. 

Seriously, tell me what’s going to happen.

Galen will find a lover.  He will trust the voice of his soul.

I mean the whole society.

I just told you it’s all personal.

Oh.  I get it.  The war is in my head.  It’s in Galen’s head.

Exactly.  It’s a glorious war.  The individual can win or lose  it.  Society can’t win or lose it.  You are having a glorious victory right now. 

How?

You are talking to me.  This exhibits rare imagination and daring.  Many people will think you’re nutty.  You will face the choice of whether to search your heart and abide by the higher voices in you.  Or seek the comfort of going along with the program.  It’s what everyone’s going through.

Everyone kind of thinks they’re alone in doing it, I suspect.

Yes.  It’s not really out of the closet quite yet.  People are learning to be free, though, and it’s important they do it on their own.  This is a new thing.  Personal freedom cannot be a mass movement.  The individual has to win the war, which is taking place in the individual heart and mind.

It’s about self-love, isn’t it?

Yes.

There is nothing like that feeling, that certainty, that thrill when you know yourself and really love your journey.  You wake up happy with yourself.  You’re going to stand in your own power.  I love that.

You know, I love it when you do that, too.  I flow better in you and in your life.  Much better.

Do you flow better in, say, an open marriage or group marriage than in monogamy?

I flow better where the energy is.  I have no particular respect for forms.  If the energy can live in monogamous marriage, then I go there.  If it can’t, I don’t.

Well, does it?

You’re there in the midst of it.  You tell me. 

You know the answer.   You start out wildly in love.  Sex is magnificent.  Then it’s like trying to hold water in your fist.  It just starts slipping away and you end up with a fraternal respect, like brothers in a noble campaign to raise children and run the domestic economy.  No one wants it, but everyone gets it that way.

And that’s why Galen and Sophia did what they did.  Not because they lack love for each other, but because they want their divine, delicious energy to flow.  They want me.

And it’s freaking Galen out.

He’s afraid of the form dying.  He’s afraid the energy will leave the form.  But the form cannot contain an energy such as sex.  Forms are creatures of time, while love-and-sex are eternal.

Is love a form?  Can love contain the energy of sex?

Good question.  Love is real in the beginning.  Then it becomes subject to the form of marriage and monogamy.  It transforms into loyalty.  And then declines into duty.  Eventually that is the kind of energy which the form can hold.

Why?

Cuz peoples just gotta be free.

Free to just hop from partner to partner as their urges move them?

You are assuming that free people suddenly lose all their faculties and values, such as judgment and respect.  You don’t suddenly stop respecting your partner and co-parent, just because you are free. 

But Sophia is not heeding Galen’s pain when she is with her lover.

Yes, he’s in pain sometimes.  And sometimes not.  She is not heeding his fear.  Why should she?  Free people do not live by fear.  It may hurt, but much learning will come from it.  He is afraid of his form dying.  It may die.  Sophia is focusing on the energy.  She is doing him a favor.  She loves him.  And she is going with the great, sweet life energy.  She has to be alive.  She is opting for life.  That is the lesson.  She is teaching it to him.  It can be painful.  He is not in pain because of what she is doing.  He is in pain because he is going with his fear. 

Will she leave him?

If he goes with form over energy, she probably will.  If he goes with his fear.  Then he will become enraged and try to use the old, broken tools of withholding, punishment, manipulation and domination.  Of course you guys, at this point in your journey, do not have many examples and role models of people, on a personal level, confidently going with the life energy over the societal forms.  It is scary to be a pioneer.  Society and all your experiences are shouting against you and all you have to go with is your own inner gyro.  And me.  I am here.  I have been waiting for you.  You were last close to me in your prehistoric days, when you were babies in the lap of nature.  I schooled you in the delights of sexuality and love.  But those were tribal times and you had little sense of individuality or freedom.  Now is different.  This is a central part of your becoming gods, this freedom you are assuming.  You will learn it.

Do you have any idea the outrage such ideas would be met with?

Yes.  As I said, it’s a personal revolution, not societal.  This is not going up for a vote.  The individual wins the battle here.

What will the new form be?  Just marriage partners going outside for an occasional sexual experience, aka open marriage?  Or something bigger, like group marriage or the rebirth of the tribe?

We don’t know.  The form will follow the energy.  At least for a while.  The form may rigidify again, as it did with all your present forms.  Rigidity is counter to life, you know.  Life flows and changes.  It is flexible. It is a creature of energy.   That which is rigid, breaks.  It dies.  If the energy cannot flow and change, it leaves the organism and the organism must die.

Do you think we guys will ever really master that kind of flexibility and responsiveness?

You have the capability to do anything.

I have to tell you that what you say sounds rather black-and-white.  You do not respect forms.  It feels so cold and merciless.  Is there some deity that does help us with forms?  We can’t live without forms.

No, you can’t.  As any good architect knows, form follows function.  You create new forms all the time.  Look how quickly the world has adapted to, say, computers, tv, satellites, chips in everything you touch.  Did that hurt?  Forms are breaking down now, like an old car just before you head for the showroom for a new one.  Keep your pecker up here.  It’s an adventure.  So you want a deity who’s into making new forms?  I don’t think you’re going to get much help from the deities, because what’s essential here is that you are finding your OWN way.  If you throw yourself back on the mercies and skills of the deities, you will end up spiteful.  You will just repeat the cycle of the last several thousand years: some people longing to be free, the other people enraged and harkening back to the old, archaic parent-child relationship with the gods.  That’s an expiring form.  The parent wants the child to walk, then run.  Then fly.  The parent still loves the child while it encourages it to fly.

It’s hard being a god.

(Laughs) It’s a lot better than you think.  Getting born can be hard, though.













~ 16 ~



America
Why We Lost the Vietnam War
How Racism Will End


Good morning, Goddess.   How are you?

I am splendid.

I have a question about this time and place.  This country, America?  And the 20th century.  And the new century.  It has seemed often to me such a banal time and place, with so many freedoms and so little culture, yet hurtling headlong to who knows where.  Tons of technology and endless shifting fads and manias from hula hoops to Promise Keepers.  Many is the time I’ve longed just to go back and live with the Indians or in Renaissance Europe or somewhere with more connectedness, more richness.  It is such a weird place here with such unlimited freedoms, yet such puritanism and such emphasis on money and enterprise.

A lot of energy here.  A lot of freedoms. 

Yes?  And what have we done good?

Ok.  You American guys have a lot of trouble seeing the big picture about yourselves.  You’re flagrant and thus easy to criticize.  You practically invented freedom of the individual.  You needed both to be captives of colonialism and have slaves yourselves to do this.  Just as you’ve done more to wreck nature than anyone else, yet you are the ones to lead environmental awareness.  You have to take on the mantle of sinner to take on the mantle of savior.  Slavery was all over the world, but no one ever bled like you guys to free slaves.  The Civil War was about that and only that.  Then you brought racism to a peak after that.  No one had ever seen that in such extremes before.  Then you fought this holy war against it right out in public.  You bring the whole drug thing to a peak and fight another holy war against it.  You demonize drink and fight another holy war against it, all out in the public arena.

Lost that one.

And you lost the drug war, too.  But you won the ones against slavery and racism.  Then there’s war itself.  You won the biggest war in the world and arguably against the greatest demons in the history of the world.  And practically in the next breath you engage in a war about war itself.  All right out in public.  With all the world weighing in on the morality of it.

Vietnam.  Lost that one.

Actually, you won that one.  War is tabu in the world now.  You guys did that. 

We’re extreme.  We troll the margins and boundaries.  So, like, what I’m trying to get at is -- is this an important time and place or is this some bizarre, tumultuous cauldron full of just self-obsessed people, which will finally not amount to very much?

It’s a marvelous time and place.  It’s a big intersection in you guys’ journey.  Look at it.  You midwifed liberty, although that just began the awesome job for you.  You have this strong band of fundamentalism, yet have become almost the most irreligious people in the history of humanity. Now you are developing the first truly personal spirituality in the history of the world.  You all have it.  You enslaved but freed all slaves, for all the world, forever.  You gave fundamentalism a free hand, then completely stopped taking it seriously because you saw it as the enemy of personal liberty.  You faced your fears of other races and finally found you actually wanted to learn their music and dance and play with them.  Then make love with them.  You invented all the fun things – planes, tv, rock, space travel, Route 66, ice cream.  You invented feminism and made it the operating intelligence of the planet.  Everything’s flowing from that now.  You took all the glory out of war and taught the world forever that it was only pain, fear and ignorance.  None of this was an intellectual exercise.  You did it with yourself on the operating table and yourself as the surgeon and the whole world watching.

I never thought of it all that way.  It’s so easy to crap on this country for all our mistakes.

For all your risks and explorations, you mean.  You guys can’t have an idea without putting it into action.  That’s why, whatever happens, it will start here.

Are we your favored people?

Har-har.  Next question?

What about right now?  It seems like nothing’s happening, what with those yuppie 80s and whateverthehell the nineties is.  It seems like we are just spinning our wheels just making a living and the news is full of nonsense like political sex scandals and debates over abortion and the right to die.  And we’re not going into space, even though we have the ability.

Remember, it’s personal.  You sound like you miss the 60s.  There was a lot in the news those days.  Now, the individual is reshaping herself.  That’s the big challenge.  Society will follow.  It used to be the other way – reshape society and we’ll just force the individual to follow.  Doesn’t work.  That’s why America is at the center.  You guys understand that.

So, America is the best?

Just the most willing.

If women have moved to the center of the world’s action and creativity, what is the role of men?

Let me just ask you what your emotions are as you ask that question?

Well, actually, I don’t feel like usurped or left out.  Quite the opposite, really.  I feel relieved.  Being in charge of the world was a drag.  I feel I can kind of relax.  Dominating is not fun.  It’s very serious.

Yes.  Take a deep breath.  Take a step back and join the circle.  Take the day off.  Take a load off.  Take your clothes off.  It’s time you had some fun.  Men’s role?  Let’s see.  Men can find no end of exploration in becoming better lovers.  That is its own reward.  You are already becoming much better dads.  The shift is already in progress.  It’s big.  The sixties was nothing compared to the way things are going to be.  The sixties was a mad falling in love with your potential as humans.  It was a nasty divorce from who you’ve been for 5,000 years.  Then you settled into the real journey of it.  Men are going to love this.  You guys have been missing so much.  And women are going to love you so much more the way you’re becoming.  You’re here for pleasure, you know.  Pleasure and learning and love.  In the past, you men have been rather angrily wrenching your pleasure – from women, from nature, from other nations.

Why?

Why else?  You haven’t thought you deserved it.

You mean because of the genderwide stain on the male soul?  The one that comes from our murders and wars?

That’s most of it.  You know, when you guys, you American guys, that is, trashed the Vietnam War, that was a major ritual of redemption on that score.  You were saying I’m sorry for war in general.  And you were saying it for all men of all times.  It created the opening for the energy to flow in the other direction, toward healing.  It is still flowing.  You changed the character of the male soul.  You will notice you sex has gotten a lot better since then.

Really?  I’ve never thought of such a connection.

Take a look at your parents.  Is your sex different than what they had?

Very.  It’s quite remarkable.

You have fought for those gains.  You guys did your years in therapy and seminars, confessed all your sins, divorced your divorces, lost your children, cried your hot tears over and over and kept telling the truth and reaching.  You plunged into all those careers and creative ventures.  You took all those hallucinogens and smoked all that pot as you scoured creation for new avenues of consciousness.  You found some that way.  And you found most of the new avenues in your heart.  Again, this is a thing that has its creative energies in America.

Why is this hysteria about drugs?

Most of it is just that ancient bitterness and blame between conservatives and liberals.  Ditto abortion.  It’s mostly political payback.  Obviously, drugs can open the mind to new possibilities and shake up the loyalty to institutions and rules.  That’s the main threat to you guys.  Or to the conservatives, really.  It’s not so much the addiction and social disintegration and crime. 

What are we to do about crack and coke and meth and all those heavily destructive drugs?

You guys have known the answers about all that for a long time. You are just getting the nerve to go with it.  Drugs are only a symptom.  Period.  People do drugs like that when they have no love and no hope of love.  They have broken hearts.  Most of it goes back to racism and the exclusion it has brought.  But you guys are dealing with that rapidly.  What will finally cut racism down are the gifts I bring you.

Yes?

Love.  Sex.  Fun.  Joy.  If it is about nothing else, making love is about cutting through boundaries and mixing the energies of the universe, which are carried in delicious variety in every human being.  You guys are growing so fast.  You will go with your longings for each other.  You achingly want to know each other that way.  You are starting to become aware that you would like to know what it would be like to make love with and hang out with those other guys over there whose traditions and music and bodies are so intriguing and different.  You want to touch their alluringly different skin and hair and to be touched by them.  You want to kiss them and laugh with them and be known by them.  You want to wake up in their homes and taste their food.  And you will.













~ 17 ~



Dark Night of the Soul – its Uses
Diana’s Death – Its Meaning
Fame as a Vestige of Shamanism



Hi Goddess.  I love you.

Good morning.  I love you.

I’ve been wondering about the seeming need we have to go through many periods of our lives which could be called the dark night of the soul.  We suffer.  The main parts of our lives seem not to work anymore.  We reexamine our lives.  We find where our strength comes from.  We find who our friends are.  We emerge changed and with newly rearranged values.  We are wiser.  What is this all about?  Is it necessary or just a nasty habit which has its roots in some unhealthy psychological process?  Did we go through this back in tribal days?

It’s the process of finding yourself.  It happens mostly when you start finding out how expensive it is to live with values and goals that are not close to you.   In the dark night of the soul, you set these free and let them float.  If they are to become truly yours, then you reintegrate them as personal values.  Otherwise, you let them go.  It’s a good thing, although it is painful and often can seem like you are dying or going crazy.  You are simply falling back on your own soul instinct.  You can always trust that.  The main fear in it is the aloneness.  It seems like you are completely alone, yet when you arrive at the new integration, you always find many people have arrived at the same place before you.  So you will find you are not alone.  You are in the company of other free individuals who have fought to be who they are and who died to their old roles and have been reborn as who they really are. 

This is a new process in human development?

Fairly new.  It doesn’t work unless you experience that leaving the herd thing.  You have to do that  alone.  That seeming death is the enactment of the choice to be a free individual, even if it means you will be alone the rest of your life.  Or even die.  Of course you end up in powerful company, but you don’t know that when you are going through your misery and isolation.  It is a vestige of what you went through when you guys declared your independence of the gods and began your journey as a quasi-autonomous species.

Where do we draw strength from when we go through this?  From you guys?

You can.  We tend to draw very close to you at times like this.  You see us more.  But you draw your strength from inside.  From your own divine.  It’s right there.  It has to come out and save you and it does.  You know that if you fall back on us, you will not grow.  You will get back in your old groove and cycle right back around to the same place.

That inner divine power.  Where did we get that?  Is it the soul?  Do animals have it?  Is it a part of the gods?

You evolved it.  It comes from the love of the gods.  It is your soul.  Animals only have it as they share in the background soul energy of the universe, which is the gods.  And yes, your soul is ultimately part of the gods.  Yet it is also yours alone.  That is because you are becoming gods.  You find animals and gods as company only to the extent you go back into that pan-soul background you lived in before you came indoors.  When you come back to the job of becoming gods, you are alone.  You have only yourselves.  There are no role models.  That is why you have experienced so much dark night of the soul over the course of your civilization.

You are not here to help us become gods?

We are here to love you and to keep providing you a universe.  We created all the complex wonders that seem to work so simply and naturally, like DNA, eyes, brains, galaxies, all that stuff.  But we can’t really help you become gods.  You have to claim that for yourselves or it wouldn’t mean anything.  You will become gods in whole new ways.  You are the next generation of gods.

Will you guys disappear?

No.  We are immortal.  So are you.  It reintegrates.

Will we be like marrying you and living with you face to face?

You humans.  I don’t know.  Look at what you’ve done so far.  You used to be woven into the fabric of nature and the gods so deeply that we were both immanent and everywhere for you and yet kind of invisible, as water is invisible to a fish.  Now look at you.  We are still everywhere, but you don’t see us.  Unless you really work at it.  You need this individuation, this absence of the gods, in order to find you way as the new beings you will become.  You will not be homo sapiens.  It will be more like homo deus.

Will we still be walking around in bodies or just floating as spirits, helping run the universe?

I guess that would be up to you.  There is no reason why you couldn’t still incarnate if you wanted.  You will want to, if I know you.  It’s too much fun.  You can have sex in bodies.  You can enter the illusion of separateness, from which you then get to seek relief by coming together and finding love.

Do gods incarnate now?

Yes.

Who?

There was Jesus.  There are scads of others in India and places like that over many thousands of years.  There were many who attained demigod powers in the paleo/neolithic era.  Today, you guys assign demigod powers to certain people and that shifts their souls, so that they can become helping spirits.  Which is kind of like a demigod.

Who are you talking about here?

Like Princess Diana, John Kennedy, Martin Luthur King, Ghandi, Lincoln, Socrates, Bobby Kennedy, John Lennon, Joan of Arc, James Dean, Marilyn Monroe, Will Rogers, lots of others who are not famous..

Odd, they all were killed.

They were sacrificed by you.  And by themselves.

Sacrificed means to make sacred.

Yes. 

Why did we do that?

You wanted to freeze them at their peak so you could hold them up as an example of the way you aspire to be.  Also, in doing this, you send them into the spirit world, where they can help you as demigods.  You all pour power into them.  They take in this power.  Then they help run the world with you.  They agreed to do this.

You’ve got to be kidding.

No.  Don’t you think it a little bit too coincidental that such a list of luminaries were all killed?  And you don’t see people like Nixon on that list.

What do they all have in common?

That should be easy enough for you to answer.

They were all visionary.  They had dreams.  They were acting on their dreams.

Yes.  They all knew what it was to be really alive.  And they all knew the dark night of the soul.  They’d done what they wanted to do in life.  Then, for a moment, they saw the door to the spirit world open for them.  They saw that if they took it, their lives would be a complete and whole energy pattern, taken at its peak.  If they lived to be old, that might all unwind.

How are they helping run the world?

They answer prayers.  You can talk to them.  They help you.  It’s kind of like the list of Christian saints, but rather for the modern, secular world.  They don’t all have to be killed, by the way.  Mother Teresa is in there.  So is St. Francis, Walt Whitman, Teddy Roosevelt, FDR, Mozart, many others.  You make people famous for a reason.  It’s an energy system.  They agree to learn to handle some of your energy and to become big and do things.  They take on the job of helping shift the group consciousness.  They role model.  They expand way beyond their own ego need.  They become the group ego.  This continues after their death.  The energy is still there flowing between them and you guys, so they continue to use it.

Can you explain the hysteria over Diana’s death?  It was just so monumental for someone who was just a school teacher 15 years ago, then became a princess, then had a very troubled life, was rejected by her husband and new family, then tried to help people at many causes like AIDs, orphans, land mines, etc., then got killed in a crash.

It’s not that she did anything that great in life.  However, the energy system had been set up by her being beautiful and good.  You made her famous.  If she were just beautiful but not good, it would not have happened.  It was dynamic and amazing because it happened just in the week of her death.  Never had the creation of this system been witnessed in so short a time and on such a scale.  You guys wanted to choose a woman.  You wanted to choose someone who was in fact beautiful and had sexuality.  You wanted someone who had decided to live her life for herself as who she really was.  That made her someone just like you.  You needed that desperately.  You needed to get away from lionizing political animals and males.  You wanted to enshrine a common woman who had had problems and who had overcome them and found love.  You wanted a mother who loved her children openly and hugged and kissed them in public.  And she had to be someone who was spending her fame doing good for love in the world.  You guys gave her fame and energy exceeding John Kennedy, Martin Luthur King and all those guys.  By the way, that’s all coming from the new feminine soul pervading the planet now, in both women and men.  That week changed the world.  It shifted your soul direction. 

Can I talk to Diana then?

Of course.  You can talk to anyone.  People like Diana, who have accepted the energy of fame and enshrinement are at work and available.  They will stay in the energy system as long as you need them.  They are like your vanguard.  They are like pioneers and scouts which you cast out into your future.  They all know the dark night of the soul and have transcended it.  They carry hope for you.  You will follow where they have led because you helped select them and because you chose them for the values they carry for the group.  In their hearts, that’s what all those people knew as they were laying out those acres of flowers for her.

It sounds rather godlike of us.

It’s something you learned to do in the paleo/neolithic.  You would go into the realm of the gods.  And you would send one of you way, way out there, to look over the mountain, so to speak.  That was the shaman.  These famous characters are echoes of that.  They still serve the same purpose.  They heal and motivate with the visions they have fought for and won and they do it by using everyone’s energy.  It is rather godlike.

But the ritual of sacrifice is not godlike is it?  It’s not good to go on killing good people like this, even if we do it unconsciously now.

We don’t need sacrifices from you.  You guys have done sacrifices all over the world for thousands of years now, including a lot of human ones.  You have done them seemingly for us and to ward off misfortune by offering up what you care about.  It’s really not necessary.  We don’t experience need.  We appreciate the gesture.  You will notice you don’t do human sacrifice anymore, except in the fame-martyrdom way.  You’re evolving.  That which you sought from us in sacrifice, you are now starting to give yourselves.

Such as?

Our presence.  You really got in touch with us in your sacrifices. Not because we needed them, but because it really used to open you to burn up stuff you cared about or to kill animals or people who were important to you.  You can also look at war as an extreme attempt to do the same thing.  You were trying to kill the other guys, but you were also offering up your lives and wealth at the same time.   But you can’t do that anymore.  Now you are getting in touch with you as gods.  That’s what you saw during the week of Diana.  That wasn’t about the gods at all, really.  It was about you guys being in control of that creative divine within you.  You were using it to reshape culture and soul that week.  Homo deus took a big leap.






~ 18 ~


Goddess.

Yes.

People seem to be seeing the female side of the Supreme Being these days.  We are talking about the Goddess more and people are worshipping her.  We are acknowledging the results of worshipping an all-powerful set of male deities.  My question is, why have we done that, gone with just one or two male deities for thousands of years now?  I mean, aside from all the temporal, earthly need for power over people.

The Goddess, back in the paleolithic was appropriate for what you were.  You were immersed in nature.  Everything was about finding food, eating, mating, birthing, death, regeneration, seasons cycling back around.  There wasn’t a lot of conceptualizing going on.  What you saw was what you got.  You had the experience of the divine and it was all that stuff I just mentioned.  It was right in front of you and around you and in you.  Since it was akin to maternal breasts with their life-giving milk and maternal womb bringing forth life, then you just saw all earth and all life as maternal.  And so the divine was female.

All that still exists and goes on, though.

That’s right.  So the Great Mother Goddess still exists and goes on.

How did the male deity get going out of all this? 

Well, you males were pretty happy with it for a very long time, several million years, really.  And during this time you all evolved into the beings you are today.  You evolved your brains and locomotion and facility with tools.  The male thing has only differentiated itself out in the last 5,000 years or so, just a moment in the big sweep of time.  Why the male thing?  You male guys might better have stayed happy the way you were, interwoven with the female thing and drawing life from it.  You could have gone on forever, literally.  No one was going to wipe you out.  You were too smart.  But you have that streak of dissatisfaction and of looking for greener pastures and wanting things to change.  That’s the male thing. 

You mean women would have been pretty happy to just continue the cycles of food gathering and reproduction and all that?

Yes.  The problem was that men got a wee bit jealous.  They didn’t nurse or give birth.  And, beyond all that, women have these moist, warm cthonic passages which bring about the most transcendant ecstasy.  You men didn’t have that.  You had to put your phallos into those passages in order to feel anything.  In order to feel the divine.

But it wasn’t always that way, was it?  I mean, way back when we were lemurs in the trees, didn’t we just do sex sort of quick and just for reproduction?

Right.  When you humans started to access and internalize the sacred, it was the women who were doing it.  They put it in their bodies as sexual love, as a direct, accessible experience of the divine, which you could actually touch.  You could carry it around with you.  You could use it at any time.  It was the most supreme shamanism and magic.  It was the most revolutionary thing humans ever did or experienced. 

What about men?  Men feel a lot of ecstatic intensity in sex.

Yes, they do.  However, men got this from women, from having themselves inside women for longer and longer periods of time, while women schooled them in the sacred magic of sexuality.  Men did not teach this to women.  Women taught it to men.  Women were the shamans here.

Well, how did men feel about all this?  Surely they noticed it and talked among themselves and maybe not all of them thought it was a wonderful idea

They all thought it was wonderful.  Who wouldn’t?   But the rub came when some men started making noises about power.  The source of life, ecstasy and power was in woman.  Men felt left out of the loop.  Even though they were essentially experiencing a magnificent gift from the divine and from women.  They eventually came to feel they were unworthy. From this they went into shame.  And from shame, they slipped into anger.

You get tired of feeling shame after a while. 

You want to be empowered.  Men knew they could never come up with anything like what women do – those ecstatic vaginas, those life-giving wombs and breasts.  Men worshipped women back then. 

There were no remote, emotionally unavailable men then?

None.  The memory of it hangs on for women.  They all want that. They are waiting for men.

How did men retreat?  What happened?  Didn’t women love men and celebrate their magical penises and erections and their contributions from hunting?

Yes, of course they did.  That went on for a very long time.  Women knew the role men played, that they sparked life and that there could be no reproduction without men.

So what’s the problem?

Well, you’re probably not going to believe this, but it wasn’t always that way.  Women went so far that they achieved the ability to reproduce without men.  Men knew this, too.  Women achieved this in working with their magic back in the Paleolithic.  But that was going too far.  There had to be a partnership.  Women gave the magic back to men.  Now it takes me to reproduce, too.  However, this left a mark on men.  When they got all the power, they often tried to make it seem like women were not really that necessary to life, that they were mere carriers of the male seed, which had all the power. 

Because men had the power over life, via their abilities in hunting and war?

Yes.  They lorded these powers and yet were ashamed of them.  So, they lost their magnificent vistas of ecstasy, which they used to share with women.  They got stuck in their roles of feeling they could do it all themselves: make life, take life, build cities, destroy cities, subjugate any peoples, free them, etc.  But they lost the world that mattered, the world which has no end of newness and expansion, which is love.  And sex.

What takes real courage is being intimate?  That’s where the real power is for men? 

Yes.  You all know it in your hearts, too.  That was the archetype your guys raised in the sixties – make love, not war.  And women say yes to men who say no – referring to war.  That energy comes straight out of the Neolithic.  It hadn’t been seen in thousands of years.  It was very threatening to the power structure of males.  That’s why they went after you with such fierceness, not because of the drugs.  The drugs were just a symbol, which was convenient for the power structure to attack.  However, the drugs helped you baby boomers see beyond all the conditioning of the systems you lived in.

You keep saying love is the big key to enlightenment and happiness.  In Western culture, it seems very rarely found or maintained.  Just a flash.  Everyone seems to keep looking for it, right on into old age.  And when someone finds it, it seems they are divorced in ten years or so.  How come we can’t get it wired?  Where are we blowing it?

You just have to believe me.  Love is the infinite voyage.  Love is the limitless power.  Love is all happiness that is ever possible.  Love is everything that feels pleasurable or good.  Whatever things you work for in life, love is a million times beyond that.  Anyone who has experienced it, will look back on their old ways and know what I am saying is true.

And the sexuality? 

You can love with or without that.  However, the sexuality I have given you and which you yourselves have worked so hard to possess and carry with you is equally your badge of immortality.  No one else has this.  It is the most supreme magic.  It is proof and presence of the divine being with you in this earthly life. 

Why do we fear it so?  Why do we make so many rules around it?  Why do we do it so little and enjoy it so rarely?

You think it is an expression of yourselves.  It is not and will never be.  It is an energy which has its source in the gods and which you will always share with us.  When you guys stole fire from the gods, what do you think that fire was?

Intelligence.  Awareness.  Language.  Tool-making facility.  And sexual passion.  And love.

Yes, all those.  But the greatest of these is love.  And sexuality.  You developed awareness because you evolved such immense sexuality.  You had to have some way to understand and experience it, and that took a bigger brain and greater awareness.  And the language to talk about it.

I can just see us developing language, saying, ugh, ugh, great, amazing, ugh, last night.  Hey, I have a question.  What DO women want?

Love.  And great sex, much, much greater than you male guys have ever imagined.  You are many centuries behind in your evolution.  And a peaceful home to raise children in and to eat well in.  And for men to do the dishes.  And to be free to have the power they were working with back when you male guys started your bossy, violent ways.  They are taking that power now.  They can do that on their own.  But only you men can make yourselves better lovers.

How?  Seriously.  I really love women and sex, but find it always starts tapering off after a year or so.  How on earth can men keep it interesting for women?  Or for themselves?

You guys have made sex the servant of your systems.  It doesn’t work well that way.  Actually you’ve done that with all the forces of nature you can get your hands on.  You would control the weather in a flash if your could.  You’ve made everything your servant.  But sexuality is the most complex and fleeting energy of all.  And the most potentially rewarding and beautiful.

I’m still not clear on how men split off from this ecstatic, interwoven journey of sex and love with women.  And why.  It was so good for them, obviously.  Why would they leave it?

It’s human nature.  For both men and women.  You guys have to push the frontiers.  You are a learning animal.  You are the only animal that does learning as the main thing.  The other animals just learn their set of behaviors.  You guys have to learn new behaviors all the time.  Or rather, you evolved that trait.  You acquired it.  It came when women internalized divine ecstasy and braided it in with sex.  You guys all realized you pretty much did this on your own, using your own will and vision and magic.  The reward was tremendous.  It was then that you became learning creatures.  So, why would men leave this ecstatic embrace which they had enjoyed for hundreds of thousands of years?  For more.  They wanted more.  It’s always more.

Ok, there’s always this thrust for exploration and newness, but you would have to have some great reward, some big vision for it to be so encompassing.  Change for its own sake won’t motivate.  What I mean is, were men trying to establish themselves as equals to women, that is, were they trying to come up with some facility to equal women’s feat in establishing ecstatic and loving sex?  Is there a competition here?  Were men feeling insecure in not being the source of all the magic in life?

Yes.  Very good.  That’s pretty much exactly it.  You created an ecstatic sexuality for yourselves and it helped engender a sense of appreciation for the world.  This made you intelligent.  You evolved all these faculties out of your own vision.  Now, about men.  They saw something and they wanted to pursue it.  They saw that if you visioned divine sex and then it manifested, well, you could vision and manifest anything.  This is what gods do.  They watched the birds and wanted to fly.  They watched fish and wanted to swim underwater.  They saw the gods of the stars and wanted to out there with them, unlimited by anything.  And they wanted to impress women.  They wanted to give them something.  So, originally it all came from love.

So, men wanted to make things, like planes and rockets and tv’s? 

Well, men did it the other way first, by becoming great shamans, working great magic.  They flew all over the universe and they sat with the gods and did all those feats of the spiritual realm.  But when you guys moved indoors, when you started civilization 5,000 years ago, you lost touch with all that, bit by bit. 

Until we were left with just the material world of wood and stones and water and iron to work with. 

Yes.  And you did work with them.  Look at you now.  Most of it has happened only in the last century.  It’s a great and amazing achievement.

And?

And, obviously, it’s just things.  You guys will go to the stars and all that.  However, your big journeys will be of the heart.  And the spirit.  You will become gods.  Literally. 

In every way that you are?

Yes.

Is it hard?

Was it hard to become intelligent beings capable of love and ecstatic sex?

I don’t know.  I think it just came naturally.  One thing led to another.  When you have a driving, exciting vision, you do not think of things as being hard or easy.  You think of the adventure.

Do you guys have one now?  A vision, a driving adventure?

Good question.  I don’t really think so.  We talk about the things we want, which are no crime, no deficit, no racism, no tyranny, no war, no AIDS, no a lot of stuff.

And, in fact, you’re achieving all those. 

I guess you’re right, though it isn’t popular to say that.  Hey, things ARE getting better.  Democracy, balanced budgets, racial interaction, cures are spreading all over the planet.

So what’s the real vision?  Where’s the mission statement of humanity?  Can you write one?  What would you say?

We are here to love.  And to have pleasure.  And to learn lots of stuff.  And to stop and smell the flowers and live in the present.  I would like to see us get back to having more festivals and more community. 

And more sex?  And better sex?

We hardly talk about that.

Why not?

I don’t know.  It’s private.  It’s what a couple works out between them. 

But it made you half gods already.  It contributed immensely to making you intelligent beings.  What is this privacy?  I don’t think it’s privacy at all but rather denial.  Sex is big.  Don’t you think the president should set up a blue ribbon commission to study the reasons sex is still so repressed and underrealized?

You’re always pushing for sex.

I’m Aphrodite.

Ok, what’s wrong with our sex lives?  What would life be like if we were better at it?

You’d be happy.  Your anxiety would be gone.  You keep yourselves suspended in fear mainly by disenfranchising yourselves from your sex, which is the main pipeline you guys built to the divine.  It was the foundation of your community all those hundreds of thousands of years you were tribal.  But you guys needed to be anxious.  Look at your main drug – coffee.  It’s main purpose is to hype you up and slam you out on a vector and make you driven.  You need that.

Why? 

It’s part of your declaration of independence from the gods.  You guys decided to rope yourselves to the mast of this material world and to wall off the world of the gods.  You have to “believe in” god now.  Before you simply saw the gods and lived with them.  And you’ve done your best to wall yourselves off from the immense and ecstatic sacredness of your sexuality.  You only imagine what the afterlife will be.  Before, you knew and were not afraid of dying and going into it. 

Why?

Part of it is that you can’t stand stasis.  You must have that rhythm.  Away-home-away-home.  But the main part is that you are in love with the unknown.  It has brought you so much.  Everything that makes you distinct from the animals

And yet, we don’t really get it about love and sex.

You used to, though.  It hasn’t been your focus since you invented civilization.  It will be though.  It’s coming back right now.  The chaos is clearing.  The plates are shifting.  Pleasure’s coming.   It’s time to love again. 













About the Author

John E. Darling is a writer living in Oregon.  He has three grown children and also a couple or three of ex-wives.  He’s worked as a journalist for many decades, since he was 16 and has done it mostly for love of interviewing people, improving his writing skill, participating in everyday life and seeing his name in print.  He worked in tv news, political reporting (got to hang out with the JFK and RFK), the Oregon legislature and on campaigns.  He grew up in Lansing and graduated from Michigan State University, was a Marine Corps journalist in the air wing just before Vietnam and got to live the Summer of Love in San Francisco.  He got a master’s in psychology and did counseling and seminars, with rebirthing as his favorite tool.  He’s taught journalism and psychology at Southern Oregon University and is a journalist and columnist published in the region.  He’s blessed with the love of offspring Hannah, Colin and Heather – and sweetie Ann.